Laydee JuLaiiHa

Post Created Dec 30, 2011 3:33:47 AM

2011-12-30T03:33:00.001+08:00

2011, it's been a up and down year for me. A year I got burned and had lesson learnt. A year I made my hardest decision. A year I had the best freedom. A year I truly understand friendship. A year I got loved and hurt.
Whatever it is, 2011 had taught me a lot. It's a heartbreaking yet enjoying year.
Best part of 2011, I had the best birthday celebration with family and friends. I had my virgin holiday trip with my close friends. I got closer with my family members during the down moment. I made new friends. I pass my attachment.
All best has it's bad also...
Heartbreak of 2011, I lose a friend. I got this heart of mine burned indirectly. I made a final decision in giving up, on highschoolcrush. My trust crumpled.

Overall, all these are part and parcels of life. I hope, I would be stronger to go through 2012. Wishing 2012 a great year ahead.

2011-11-27T01:33:00.003+08:00

People seriously need to remember this:

My heart is not a welcome mat.

So,do not use it.

Walk all over it,

Kick it & Leave.

Post Created Oct 14, 2011 11:58:34 PM

2011-10-14T23:58:00.001+08:00

Hmm... When I'm questioned why am I still a single girl? Instantly, it hurt me a lot. I do get this question a lot and I always dread answering them.
Plus, I hate when people come to conclusion that I'm a high maintenance girl, I'm a picky girl.
I'm not that sort of girl, there is just something that I have been keeping all quiet about.
To tell you the truth, I'm not picky nor a high maintenance girl. I'm just a simple girl, that next door girl. If you still wonder why am I still all single up till now.
Simple... I, Julaiha feel herself not worthy to be loved in any way or another. I feel that I'm not pretty or amazing for any guy to fall head over heels with. I don't feel as though I'm special in any way. I have always believe that no guy would fall or like me, love me. That's the reason why I'm still single up till now.
Also, what happened in the past do make me realize that I'm not worthy for anyone.
If I'm worthy, he would have made our relationship public and known. By this, it truly shows that I'm not worthy for a guy to love me the way I am.
All I want is for a guy to understand this.
Don't keep saying that I'm a high maintenance girl or picky girl.
All I need is that one guy, to point up to his friends "that's her, my girlfriend"
It's the simple wish yet the hardest to attain.

Post Created Oct 12, 2011 4:16:18 AM

2011-10-12T04:16:00.001+08:00

I'm fighting with myself against the urge to think of you. Each time, the thought of you appear in my mind... I would always remind myself how I was not even in your mind on my special day.
Yes, I'm struggling... At least, I'm trying.

2011-10-10T01:10:00.003+08:00

if only you could understand my feelings,

if only you could go through my days

i wonder how would you react and survive through my days.

what decision would you make, when you knew that you had a chance.

would you blew it away or take a risk?

whatever it is, all of these are just "what if"

You're my biggest, What If

2011-10-09T03:12:00.003+08:00

i'm seriously tired.

tired of waiting.

tired of hoping.

tired of disappointment.

i really wish all this could end.

it's hard to walk away, when you still have the urge to stay.

it's hard when you know walking away is the right thing to do, but you just can't seem to make a step.

life would be simpler, if i had the courage to tell you everything.

life would be simpler, if you could read my mind.

well, there are just some stuff that would never turn out to be how we imagined it would be.

sometimes, it is already been fated that the outcome would be like this.

"if two people are meant to be together, they will find their own way"

for now, i got to take a deep breathe and walk away.

it is the part and parcel of life.

2011-10-07T00:00:00.002+08:00

Simple verb to conclude my day; Sucky !

Pretty much hate what i'm feeling right now.

I guess, the word of people don't truly care is rather true

than people who keep promising that they gonna be there for you.

2011-10-05T18:52:00.002+08:00

Time do flies and never waits for anyone. Up here is the picture, of my lovely ladies. They are shoulder to cry on.

They are my listening ear. They are my laughing machine. I'm glad that I met them during my high school days.

Our friendship is about 8 years now and i hope it will keep counting.

For now, Wani and Zara is busy with their career while Bahirah and I are busy with our studies.

I'm happy that we're still able to squeeze some quality time within our hectic schedule.

I wonder how are we gonna squeeze some quality time, when all four of us are busy with our career in years to come.

Still, when we are all busy with our own partners and family.

I hope we could still hold on to this beautiful friendship.

Love this friendship so much and I gonna treasure this friendship a lot.

#SmallGirl: Hazwani Bte Abd Mois

#LaughingMachine: Zahirah Bte Omar

#HardworkingGirl: Bahirah Bte Bahar

Post Created Oct 3, 2011 3:39:17 AM

2011-10-03T03:39:00.001+08:00

When you're at your lowest moment, you will realize who you're true friends are. With many things happening in my life, at the same time, yesterday was really my lowest moment. I was badly affected by a news, it was a reality check. I was so affected yet I could not show it as I do not want my parents to know about this.
Yesterday, I was glad Wani was there to listen and provides me with suggestions, through whatsapp. It was the first time that I cried, while trying to explain my situation. It was really a cry my heart out.
Yesterday, I cried myself to sleep and woke up to a terrible headache.
Then, I had to follow mum out. In the bus, long ride with heavy heart and a lot of things in mind. I recall my conversation with Wani, I realize that I would never be that kind of girl that #highschoolcrush want. I cannot be that girl and I do not want to be that kind of girl. I had done enough from my part, that's why it should really stop.
I got to move on, as it is for the better.
Also, after sharing this issue with kak shikin I felt better when she told me "it's okay to cry your heart out, rather than to bottle it all up"

To my close friends; wani, bahirah, zahirah and not forgetting azie thank you for always being there to be my listening ears. I would really try my best to move on, trust me. I really do need your understanding in this.

Ya Allah, kalau ini ujian yang kau berikan insyaallah akan aku mengatasinya .

Heavyheart, please go away.
I'm emotionally tired and psychologically affected but I know I gonna pull it through.

2011-09-29T16:55:00.005+08:00

What if, the one that you have always wanted is the not the one you actually need?

Wait, how long does waiting for someone would then be waited, like waited too long?

Would my life be better, if i had not know you? Would my life be better, if our path does not crossed?

Do you know what sucks? It is knowing the need to let go, but I choose to hold on. That sucks big time, and that is what you would never understand.

This post would specially dedicate to my #highschoolcrush.

Firstly, i would like to thank you for the beatiful memories since high school.

You made my high school life amazing. You're my motivation to get up every morning to attend school.

You're also my inspiration to fight on my 2 major exmaination to fight for a place in Poly.

Thank you for all that, eventhough you do not realize that.

However, for now ... I realize that i have just waited too long and it will just be another wasteful wait for you.

I have always reserved this heart of mine for the boy, whom heart is away with someone else.

Therefore, I got to be brave and cold, to walk away rather than to stay around this infatuation.

I got to put a stop to this infatuation as it would never be up to the next level.

Therefore, I'm done waiting and i'm walking away from all these.

Dear #highschoolcrush, you would still be that special someone whom holds a special place in my heart.

The next time the thoughts of you appear in my mind, i would remember you just as a casual friend.

I hope my close friends would understand this and stand by me.

I'm letting go of you, #highschoolcrush, you're my #hardest goodbye but since it is for the better.

Post Created Sep 11, 2011 2:47:21 AM

2011-09-11T02:47:00.001+08:00

It's sept 11 already? Oh great; for the first time in my life I totally forgot about my birthday. (I hope it won't happen again)
Simply because I'm rather caught up with the Phuket trip on sept 12. Busy with the packing up plus school holiday totally make me lose my track of calendar.
Okay, with a year older means a lot wiser (I hope so) I'm grateful that God have given me this opportunity to witness my 20th birthday here on earth. I'm glad of the family and friends that I have met along my 20th here on earth. Everyone plays a key role in my character development for the past 20years.
I'm thankful of the love and cares showered to me by all the awesome people in my life. Each and everyone of you, are the collies of my life. Without you people, my life would be black and white;dull.
Honestly, each year I wish I could celebrate with someone special but then I wonder... Why spend it with someone when you can celebrate with everyone!
Yes, another year celebrating without someone special but I know my Mr. is out there somewhere. There no need to rush things; let it come naturally. Until my Mr. arrive in my life, this heart of mine would still be with that boy whom heart is away with someone else. #highschoolcrush
My wish? For people around me to be filled with happiness and love. That includes you #highschoolcrush

Happy birthday to me, happy birthday to me.
Happy birthday to Siti Julaiha Binte Rosli
Happy birthday to me :)

Post Created Sep 8, 2011 1:38:56 AM

2011-09-08T01:38:00.001+08:00

Well maybe, just maybe some people are meant to be all alone in their life. And maybe that some people is me.

Only God knows these thoughts and feelings.

Post Created Sep 7, 2011 6:34:00 PM

2011-09-07T18:34:00.001+08:00

Whatever that lies for me in future, scares me alot. I'm afraid of the pressure and the expectations. All I know for now is that; God would never give me something that I cannot handle.

Post Created Sep 1, 2011 7:53:51 PM

2011-09-01T19:53:00.001+08:00

God gave us a pair of ears with a mind in te center, not because it look nicer that way. Simply because HE encourages us to use our pair of ears to listen to both parties and use our right state of mind to make our conclusion. Possibly without being bias of any party.

Post Created Aug 24, 2011 11:32:13 PM

2011-08-24T23:32:00.001+08:00

People's feelings are not toys.
They are not meant to be played, tested of whatsoever. We always get upset when someone plays with our feelings, then why we go around playing with other people feelings.
If you cannot bear to get your heart hurt, do not go around giving false hopes to other people.
Yes, maybe you want to test a guy/girl before getting into a relationship but always remember there's a limit to their patience and feelings do fades away.
If you really really do not have feelings for that person, why not just come up straight and tell the person.
Indeed truth hurts, but lying hurts more.
You can never force a person to stop loving you, but you have the control in not leading them on any further, when you know it is impossible for both parties.
By doing this, you may look like a bitch. But it is for the better, seriously.

Post Created Aug 24, 2011 1:25:15 AM

2011-08-24T01:25:00.001+08:00

Never make decision when you're angry because at the end of the day, you will regret that decision.
Some says whatever is said during an argument should not be taken to heart as it does not really matter.
However, some also says when a person is angry whatever is said is the hidden truth. What they truly meant.
Whatever it is, I suppose we should never make a decision when we're angry. We should still try to think rationally during an argument.

2011-08-19T01:26:00.002+08:00

There are people in this world, that always want to pin you down to the ground.

Worst, some just love to point your flaws so that they can shine instead.

Why shine upon others flaws, that is not beautiful thing to do.

The only real reason why you keep pointing other flaws because you are afraid of their success.

I, may not be as pretty as you

I, may not be as smart as you

But at least, I did not point out your flaws just to make myself look better.

I just wish one day, everything would just shine on me.

Post Created Aug 16, 2011 12:58:33 AM

2011-08-16T00:58:00.001+08:00

Dear heart, I wonder for how much longer would you still want to reserve that place for that boy. That boy, whose heart is away with some other girl.

Post Created Aug 13, 2011 3:40:12 PM

2011-08-13T15:40:00.001+08:00

In this heart of mine, I had and always do reserve a place for that boy whom heart is away to some other girl.

2011-08-12T23:32:00.002+08:00

i hate the fact that i keep on gazing and admiring the moon,

that i neglect the stars that shines for me all these while.

i know this is happening yet i'm ignoring the fact purposely.

no matter how i try to change this, i just cannot do it.

i guess, it had become a bad habit.

overall, i just need to stop hurting and pushing people out of my life.

there's always a reason why things happened:)

2011-08-04T11:50:00.001+08:00

Lesson learnt last Friday; I learnt that not everyone that offers help has a good intentions. Some do really have a good intention but some just make use of your situation to help themselves out.
Also, I learnt that when you are in a crisis, you would realize who your true friends really are. They are the ones that believe that you would survive through the bad times and being there for you. Family... You will know who you're family member are when you're in a crisis. Who offered help and who just ignore and pretend as though nothing happened.
Overall, I'm glad and thankful I had friends and family that were there during my bad times. Thanks for being there encouraging me and remind me to be strong to go through this. Just by their words, I know I was not alone going through this. I know I have them to catch me, when I fall. Thanks for being there for me, I really appreciate it from the bottom of my heart:)

There's always a reason why things happened and there's always a silver lining ...

2011-07-28T20:30:00.006+08:00

I know, it's been quite some time that i have updated this plain blog of mine. Currently, i'm busy with school projects and exams is coming on the way this August. I really hope i can do well during exams because I want to graduate with my awesome friends.

A lot of things happened this past few months, weeks but whatever it is i just hope everything will be alright and i will strong to face all these.

No matter what happened in life, we have to keep smiling and believe that everything will be okay :) Things will fall out of place and will have obstacles to face, all we need to do is to be strong to face all this.

Anyway, fasting month is approaching pretty soon. Let it be a great fasting month for everyone. Once fasting month is over, there come a countdown to my special day plus my virgin overseas with my awesome friends. I wish that everything will be good and flow smoothly for these two months. i'm not asking for much, just a great day ahead. i just want things to fall perfectly into place.

Lastly, i'm strengthening these fences to guard this heart of mine.

2011-06-21T00:57:00.003+08:00

Friends are people that you think are your friends

But they're really your enemies, with secret identities

and disguises, to hide they're true colors

So just when you think you're close enough to be brothers

they wanna come back and cut your throat when you ain't looking

people come and go, leaving scars and footprint in our life.

There are people that we're glad that we met and there are people we wished we had never met.

2011-06-18T22:41:00.002+08:00

People got their heart broken, mine got damaged.

2011-06-17T18:21:00.002+08:00

I came across this on Twitter:

When a boy break a girls heart,

she still feels it when he run into each other 3 years later.

right now, i know where i stand.

2011-06-11T17:12:00.006+08:00

you're not in my shoe, so you don't know what i've been through. Since you don't know anything about my life, don't come up to me and give me all this shit that you thought, it will do me.

I have my own reasons for my actions.

This is the reason why i dread meeting up with my guys ex-schmates because they will end up asking about her. i'm not jealous or what, it's just that what made you guys think that i know about her whereabouts. Her life does not revolves around mine, so why are you guys keep bugging me with questions.

I do not give a fucking damn about what she's doing right now, who she's dating now all that. If you really want to know, why not just ring her up and shoot her with questions.

Just because we're related by blood, that does not means that i know everything that happened in her life. Frankly, it's been years since we last talked and it was her who initaited the silence treatment so why must it be me that break the ice? Will it be fair for me? Getting all the blame just because of her actions?

Stop comparing me with her, we're completely two different people.

It really hurts to see that people, whom i thought to be my friends are jugding me directly without knowing the whole story of my life.

It's like i'm fighting a losing battle, even before i could stand up for my right, i've already been judged. She's the apple of your eyes, that's why whatever I say and do would be seen as bad, negative and wrong to you. She's the angelic one and i'm the fucking bitch to you.

Thanks for leting me realize that yesterday. Right now, i realize that just by having looks,body and slutty manners you can win over a guy completely until he loses his right state of mind. It been years since i've tolerated being compared, judged, mock by you guys. Right now, i know where i stand thanks for making me see that clearly yesterday.I have my breaking point too.

I know, this thing will still continue and there is a limit to my patience. Breaking a friendship would be the last resort to this.

Post Created Jun 3, 2011 12:24:15 AM

2011-06-03T00:24:00.001+08:00

Every failure is a lesson learnt. I got burned and it was a lesson learnt. I can recall your remarks, "I thought you prefer temantapimesra/nostringattached/friendswithbenefits"
Thanks to that lesson learnt, I learnt to never let these come across in my life again, because it hurts much more than a real true relationship.
Simply the reason, is that even after the failure you still do not know if all those moments, promises made and had was just a plain for fun or there was a real love for a moment?
That's why i'd rather stay the way I am than being back to square one. It's pointless & it's dumb to be repeating the same mistake.
To answer back to you; Yes indeed I prefer in those temantapimesra/nostringattached etc because you are not tied down to a commitment. However, from that failure I realize it will never be successful because there is a low possibility to just be a platonic friendship.
Along the way, you will fall in love with him:her but it's just s matter of how courage you are to come clean with it.
Yes, I did fall & I did believe that we had something between us. Sadly, I got crashed! Thanks to that, I hate temantapimesra/nostringattached all!
If I can't go official and public, I'd rather stay the way I am.

Trust

2011-05-21T17:44:00.004+08:00

Right now, I do not even know who to trust! YOU? Well, maybe ...

I do not see the point of having lotsa friends, who are just fake in treating friendship.

I'd rather have a few of real ones and I'm contented with that.

Having these few real ones simply made my life a brighter and awesome ones.

As you may not know,

It is easier to to forgive an enemy than to forgive a friend.

Trust is like a piece of paper, once it's crumble it can't be perfect.

2011-05-09T21:34:00.002+08:00

Ooooh well, i'm officially back to school. Being a full time student in NYP does not stop me from my craze of drama series. Thanks to a friend of mine, Adda for her kind information. I'm back again to that craze drama series of mine. chill people, it's not Korean Drama. I'm Back to English Drama Series. Okay, i'm doing some catching up to my all time favorite English Drama Series - One Tree Hill. Currently, One Tree Hill is already at its Season 8 but to keep things great, i'm starting all over from Season 1.

Right now, at this very moment i'm supposed to be online on msn to discuss on my International Business Project but it would not be a sin right to indulge a bit of One Tree Hill :)

So here is what i found on Youtube, for my two favorite character in the whole series.

This may only be in a drama series, but i believe it is true someway. That love does matters in life:)

Plastic World

2011-04-24T19:46:00.001+08:00

Just when you thought you've got someone back, they turn their back to you. Too many fake people around in this world. Well, maybe it's not that they change. It's just that only now they show you their true color. I really wonder what is ur definition of friendship? For now, the only thing I know is that your definition is very different from mine.

Post Created Apr 1, 2011 11:51:45 PM

2011-04-01T23:51:00.001+08:00

If anyone had ever promise " I'll never forget you ". Don't be too happy, because out of 10 people who promise this, 11 would break it. People change, no matter how much they deny it.
Never make a promise that you are sure that you keep, because it will hurt people who actually believe it.

Friendship

2011-03-30T21:58:00.001+08:00

There are people who will only come knocking on your door, when they need your help. When they got no one else to depend on, they would come running to your door step. It sucks, when you thought that you mean something in their life but the truth is that you are just a backdrop in their life. Without you, their life would still go on. These people know that you are dependable during their rough time, they know that you are very kind to be there for them when they really need someone support. However, when they are at the top, you were not even in their mind.
These people will have their karma back twice the times, for taking advantage of others kindness. Sometimes, it is because the person is too kind and you depended on them too much that you did not realize that you had gotten them for granted.
One day, when you are really in need, the person who had always been there to back you up, to help you up would realize that it is all enough and will turn away their back. When you realize that, it will be too late.
So right now, if you do have a friend that are your backdrop do treasure them because if you do lose them, you will regret it alot.

Story behind it

2011-03-28T23:17:00.003+08:00

I'm really tired pretending that everything is alright. Being the sunshine, when all I want to do is to break down and cry. I want to tug myself under my blanket, cover with pillow and burst into tears and scream like nobody business. Just because there is always a smile on my face, it does not always means that I'm alright. I pretended so much of being alright until people could not even differentiate if I'm still pretending or am I really happy. It sucks, big time. Sometimes, it's hard to preach your own advice. I've always believe in "everything will be alright, when you believe it will" and " keep on smiling even though things were to fall apart" I do still believe in these, that what keep me going through my life. However, there is a limit and I hope i can withstand this, seriously. I know, I'm strong. Julaiha, you gotta hold on and keep going.

The End

2011-03-13T20:26:00.002+08:00

I gonna let this thing end.

Gotta get you out of my mind.

Enough of that

hot - then - cold treatment

high - then low - rollercoaster.

i'm done here.

i guess i pretty much miss you.

2011-03-07T22:03:00.002+08:00

i miss ...

your face.

your laughter.

your smile.

your smell.

your voice.

your concern.

your care.

your touch.

i guess i pretty much miss you.

i would trade uncountable moment just to be with you :)

Compromising is my way

2011-02-19T15:32:00.002+08:00

Sometimes, the person whom you thought would know you the best were the one that do not really understand you. It really hurts to always being the one to compromise everything, to just follow your wants. Well i'm not gonna blame anyone but myself for being too soft hearted to just let you take control. I dislike argument,that why i'd rather suck it in all the unhappiness and just flash you a smile. Your words hurt people without you realizing, i guess i'm have just got used to it already that i don't really care of whatever you say.

Compromising is my way.

As much as I wanna give up, I hold on.

2011-02-05T20:42:00.002+08:00

As much as I wanna give up, I hold on.

Waiting upon the uncertain is already painful, giving up is torturing too.

I hate bring uncertain of the situation, please God show me the way.

I want to know if I should wait or just give up.

Hey you, drained away my strength.

I NEED TO GET YOU OUT OF MY MIND. but YOU'RE MY FAVOURITE ADDICTION.

2011-02-02T00:48:00.002+08:00

I NEED TO GET YOU OUT OF MY MIND.

but YOU'RE MY FAVOURITE ADDICTION.

September 11

2011-01-27T01:37:00.002+08:00

I was so bored that i research this :

September 11 Birthday

YOUR SIGN - Virgo

YOUR ELEMENT - Earth

YOUR RULERS - Mercury, Saturn.

September 11 Birthday interpretation.

The September 11 Virgo birth date identifies with an individual who has a very strong artistic temperament, good artistic abilities and a very sound eye for detail.

These September 8 qualities could certainly indicate that you are the type of person who may not be too happy in having to exist in the general hectic rat race of an everyday environment.

With a good sense of vision and a keen eye for detail, then any form of creative activity should appeal to you. The art of sculpting for example should match with your talents.

As a September 11 you do have significant talent, and you may well give consideration to foregoing a regular income earning activity in order to work on creative projects and activities.

Before you do so however, make sure to give due consideration to all the risks involved in relation to your personal circumstances. Be very practical in your assessments, and then and only when you are totally comfortable with your idea, concept and plans, should you take the plunge.

You should endeavour to utilize your power for vision toward the need for long term planning, as this is an important factor to maintain organization in your life.

The effect of the Lunar energies can act to influence, and a to boost your sense of imagination. In this respect therefore, you might like to consider pondering upon some of you more important creations during the time of a full moon.

The September 11 birth date identifies with literary talent, and this could lead you to a desire to express you’re ideas, concept and feelings in writing.

As a Virgo sign you are subject to the influences of Mercury, and these can help to inspire your thoughts and visualizations in a manner, free from emotional intrusions.

In this respect therefore, the activity of writing can be a very good mental practice for you, and when you do so, you should allow your thoughts, concept, ideas and feelings to be freely expressed.

Your writing area is likely to be described as organized clutter, and even where you might in this modern day and age use a computer, the simple act of sharpening a pencil could be an activity to encourage your writing mood.

As a September 11 birth date, you are by nature a very restless and adventurous type of person who will enjoy travelling, visiting and seeing as much of our world as you can.

Organization is important to you, and you are not the type of person who will to just leave things to chance. In fact, you are unlikely to be able to relax and enjoy yourself unless every thing is organized and in its place.

Where travelling for example, you will make sure to have travel insurance, that you have all necessary travel documents in order, and that are carrying the appropriate types of clothing for your mode of travel and climate conditions.

You are likely to pack all the medicines, cosmetics, toiletries, and other bits and pieces that you could ever need, and where any pets are concerned, ensure that that are safely cared for while you are away.

In your travels you will certainly tend to favour the more luxurious environments, and in settings where, your every need is catered for with pleasant cordiality, and courteousness.

As a September 11 your path entails that of gaining a thorough understanding of the principle of the division of labour.

As example, complex jobs can usually be completed less expensively by a large number of people, where each performs a small number of specialized tasks rather than, by only one person attempting to complete the entire job.

This is pattern therefore that calls for the pursuit of specialization and your own personal refinement. The irony of this path however, is that your ultimate expression is linked to that of outstanding cooperation with other people.

For you, satisfaction and fulfilment occurs when others are as well-rewarded as you are yourself.

As example, where one is engage in a team sport, they can learn to discover the position in which they perform the best. Then they can enjoy the results when the team as a whole, proves to be successful.

The colours of peach, white, dark blue, beige, and a greyish/green resonate well with this birth date, and the gemstone of “citrine” is one that can help you to identify with your specialty talents.

On the home front, the September 11 will want to establish a homely but organized in-home environment for comfort, contentment and happiness.

You should endeavour to incorporate some reminders of you earth element within the home, and these could take the form of an earthen vase or urn filled with sheaves of dried flowers or some fresh wildflowers.

Small containers or boxes to hold supplies or keepsakes can be interesting decorative objects for you.

You do have an attraction for those more delicate things in life, so that some fine crystal ware, vases, bowls or glasses will be good items for both display and your visual appreciation.

The organizational aspects of your personality are likely to be well expressed in your kitchen with the correct gadgets or utensils for each and every need positioned or stored in convenient places within your working area.

On the out doors front, the September 11 will enjoy wide-open rural landscapes. Farming environments can be of particular appeal to you.

If you happen to live in a rural or farming environment you could have a great interest in the natural fauna as well as an interest in the processing and preserving of fruits, vegetables and pickles etc. An herb garden could be a favourite endeavour and activity.

Your garden is likely to be well organized and incorporate some interesting, if not unusual features forms of unusual rock features or carved, sculptured garden ornaments. A birdbath or bird feeder could be a pleasurable feature to have.

Your special magic numbers are 2 and 3. The number two represents that of replication, dependence, and polarized expression, and the number three adds the helpful influences for creative self-expression and development. This will help your personal on-forward progression and improvement

i'm walking away

2011-01-24T23:59:00.002+08:00

Feeling so down, that i guess the only option for me is to just walk away now.

I do not want to be hurt, feeling all the aching and pain when you do not even know that I exists.

We can have a lot in common, but i guess i'm just out of your league.

You are the kind of person, but I'm not.

So, walking a away is the option now?

I don't want to get anymore hurt, today's pain is enough.

I'm walking away... leaving everything to fate.

you're my common boy ... but i'm out of your league.

It is all about fate

2011-01-13T23:55:00.002+08:00

If something was really important,

fate made sure it somehow came back to you,

and gave you another chance.

Keep Smiling, even if everything falls apart

2011-01-09T03:36:00.005+08:00

When the thought of giving everything up and

to just curl myself up in a ball and sleep through the hurt and anger.

When everything does not fall into places and everything is going against me.

I would stare the picture above and smile instantly,

it's not because i'm looking at my own photo.

Looking at the quotes it gives me calmness and within moment i'm back to my old self.

I'm the type of girl, that could still be laughing and smiling my ass off even though everything surrounds me are falling apart.

I have always believe in;

" Keep Smiling, even if everything falls apart"

Like mentioned, Everything will be okay. You just have to believe it will.

It may not be now, but it will someday.

It will never rains forever.

Seriously Speaking,

2011-01-06T11:40:00.001+08:00

i guess, i'm done here.

Only yourself that knows your strength limitation

2011-01-04T01:14:00.002+08:00

People can say that you're a weakling and a crybaby, but no ones knows how strong you really are except for yourself. Only you, yourself that knows your strength limitation.

Daddy always disturb me, on how i used to be a crybaby when i was a kid.

My instant reaction would be crying out loud, even just by a slight raise of voice.

I admit, i used to be a crybaby.

Everyone has their own soft spot.

Recently, i do not know what's came up in my mind until i got myself this thoughts.

I composed myself, stronger.

I told daddy that, never judge me as a weakling and a crybaby just because i used to be one.

Yes, i may have my soft spot but only myself knows how strong i am.

If i'm not strong at will,

i would not even been here writing this post and living for the past 19 years.

This is related to the facts, that my parents made a decision back 19 years ago not to bring me into this world - an unplanned pregnancy, abortion.

Simply it's because, they had just had my elder sister therefore to have me,

it would be too early since my elder sis have not even a year old.

I cried, when mummy told me that she ate all the different type of herbal things

just to clear me away. She had to ate pineapples all,

but still she could not get rid of me.

It was then, they decided to keep me.

From there, i know that i'm a strong girl at will because i could withstand the pressure that my parents wanted to get rid of me.

I still hold on.

People may say, it God and it's simply not about me.

But i will put it this way, I was strong at will to be born in this family and God gave me the strength to hold on and God and I shared a reason on why am i born in this family.

I'm proud to be the daughter to my parents and

i thank God for giving me this chance to live in his beautiful world.

There were times, when i wanted to give up

but each time i want to give up i would think on how much pressure and struggle

i pulled through to be able to live.

Lastly, i want to know what is my reason for living in this world

and to be a part of this family.

Sayang Allah, Mama, Abah <3>

Common Boy.

2010-12-30T00:52:00.003+08:00

how can two people having so much in common, yet they weren't together.

sadly, those two people are us.

We had so much in common yet we're far in distance.

Well, whatever will be, will be.

will be calling you, Common Boy

you won't understand

2010-12-29T00:38:00.002+08:00

you want others to understand your feelings and thoughts, but have you ever tried to understand them?

Try living their life, walking in their shoe then you will know the reasons behind their decision.

You are not me, you do not live my life.

So, you will never know what I went through and never understand.

I'm holding on to the last straw in my patience

2010-12-22T11:33:00.005+08:00

Why am i always supposed to be the only one most responsible child at home? At the age of 19, i ought to be out there having fun with my friends. Not being stuck with work and worried about family and financial. Why does the burden is all being carried by me alone, it's not that i do not have a elder sibling. I have, but how can she just simply ignore all those responsible and be out there having fun and not even think about the family. I'm sick of this thing, to be responsible and matured when i can be childish and irresponsible. I envy you, for being so irresponsible and so thick skin for not even have the shame for letting me carrying all the burden when you can just have fun all day.

i really hurts being the second child in this family, seriously. i feel like i'm living for the family sake. i gotta stay strong for the family and my younger siblings.

elder sis, i know you won't be reading this. So i'm just saying this ...

I really hope you would change for the better. Somewhat i wish God would wake you up and let you see that there so much you gotta do in this family. As family, we ought to stick together through the thick and thin. We cannot do anything, if you choose to shut yourself from us.

I'm tired carrying my responsibility as a second child plus having to carry your responsibility as the elder child.

All i want for Xmas is for you to change and be a better person with responsibility.

I wish for a fairytale happy ending

2010-12-21T00:23:00.005+08:00

gravity is not responsible for falling in love. I know it's wrong to fall for you, especially when you're already with someone. As i've already promised myself never to my happiness upon others misery. Therefore, once again i would just sit at the sideline and love you from there. Waiting is my decision now. You managed to bring back those lost feelings therefore, i choose to wait.

I'm not a cinderella whom have a fairy godmother to create miracle. I'm not a snow white whom have seven dwarfs to accompany me. I'm not a Princess Jasmin whom have a genie to grant 3 wishes.

I'm just living a normal-kid-julaiha-life. Which i do not know what lies ahead in future and how would my fairytale life ends with. A happy ending with my very own prince charming?

2010-12-18T00:39:00.004+08:00

[ BestFriend ]

The greatest thing about having a bestfriend is that, you do not need to say things out because he/she would automatically know just by observing your actions. A true friendship is when, both friends sits in silence but there's a meaningful conversation occurred.

[ Future ]

Sometimes, you tend to find the right one at the wrong time. Even, the right one is already with someone. The only thing you can do is to just be at the sideline and love from there.

Well, waiting is an option to everyone.

Priorities?

2010-11-23T20:35:00.002+08:00

I need to get my priorities right. Wait! How to get my priorities right when i do not even know which is priorities?

2010-11-18T00:48:00.001+08:00

i need my space. we're just friends, so just let it be that way cos it's better that way.

Did you really fell in love?

2010-11-11T22:55:00.002+08:00

you get into and out of relationship as if you are changing your clothes. i wonder, have you ever really fall in love. Because if you did, i believe it will take you sometime to get into a new relationship. however, not even 1 month you are already in your new relationship. Within a year, you can get into multiple times of new relationship. Did you really really loved the person you were with. Unlike me, even after 3 years, i'm still single. Not that i do not want to be in the new relationship or i have not moved on. It's just that i don't think now is the time and i do not want to waste my energy crying and get upset over and over again.

Seriously speaking, i guess you have not really fell in love that's why you can moved on very easy. I guess, the person whom you used to be with did not really mean anything to you or even hold an insignificant value to you. Girl, you have never really fell in love. Once you really fell in love and get ditched, you will understand how i feel :)

Don't give up

2010-10-25T13:25:00.002+08:00

when the thought of giving up is there, instead of giving up do remember what made you hold on till now.

Only you, Boy

2010-10-20T00:14:00.002+08:00

" i might hug other guys, laugh with other guys & hang out with other guys

but no one every mean so much like you "

All i want is someone that can make me feel head over heels just like how i used to feel towards A, because through that feelings i know i love him wholeheartedly. If i could not find him, then i will just keep my heart to myself.

Self-Reflection

2010-10-18T21:34:00.004+08:00

Take a step back. Fucking look at yourself. You are human. You are beautiful.

You are so beautiful. And you can be anything. You can be everything.

Do not hate everyone just because someone broke your heart, or because your parents split up, or your best friend betrayed you, your father hits you, the kid down street calls you fat,ugly,stupid,worthless. Do not concern yourself with things you cannot control.

Cry when you need to then let it go when it's time. Don't hang on to painful memories just because you are afraid to forget. Let go of things that are in the past. Forget things that aren't worth remembering. Stop take things for granted. Stop taking life for granted.

Live for something. Live for yourself. Fall in love. Fall out of love. Fall in love. Fall out of love.

Do this over and over again until you really know what it is to really love someone.

Question things. Tell people how you really feel. Sleep under the stars. Create. Imagine. Inspire. Share something wonderful. Meet new people. Make someone's day.Follow your dreams.

Live your life to it's full potential. Just live,dammit. Let go of all horrible things in your live and fucking live. And one day, when you're old, look back with no regret.

Found this statement, at tumblr. It's really worth giving a thought & i love it so much.

you're on my mind but she filled your mind not me

2010-10-15T01:18:00.002+08:00

Dedicated to you; whom used to be the reason i smile.

i miss watching you. pretending doing my own stuff, while catching the sight of you from the corner of my eye. instant smile, whenever i see your face or even knows that you are near.

yes, boy it's been years now. I know and i do not mind that you are happily attached to that girlfriend of yours. However, why do i still get the butterflies in my stomach whenever i hear news about you or simply when i see you. Somewhat, i wish that you would be there waiting up for me. Simply sitting down at the void deck just to wait up for me.

Hate to admit, but a part of me is still hoping for you and yes, i'm still waiting for you.

" you're on my mind but she filled your mind not me "

2010-10-05T00:43:00.001+08:00

one day i will open my heart and let love enter but for now, i'm better off like this.

so don't force when i know i can't

2010-09-27T22:11:00.003+08:00

25th sept, saturday ...

spent 14 hours with these lovely dude &dudettes out hari raya visits around

bukit panjang, choa chu kang & lastly woodlands :)

** dudes & dudettes ... at zara crib**

totally felt in place, where i belonged.

a great friendship created in zhenghua secondary was worthwhile.

they new each other inside out & the care were shown very truly.

** the dudes **

they were there, during the ups & downs of life.

we saw how each other grew up and learnt each other character and personality.

the tears,anger,joy and sadness were very much shared together.

** the dudettes **

lastly, a great surprised celebration that caught me by surprised.

even it is was 15 days later, but it's really the thoughts that counts.

** the celebration at Ba's crib **

Friendship is not measured by how long you knew a person ...

2010-09-11T20:29:00.002+08:00

officially today, im one year older from yesterday. for those who cared. for those who was accompanied me through the Ups & Downs of my journey of life. for those who watched me grew up. for those who love me unconditionally. i'm truly blessed with everything. i'm glad having these people in my life and i would treasure each and everyone of them from the bottom of my heart.

thank my dearest D&Ds ( my secondary school express clique)

thank my dearest SW0902 clique

thank my dearest SW1002 juniors

thank my dearest relatives

thank my dearest 4/5NAs

simply, i just wanna thank everyone who knew me and made my day through out my life.

i just love them very much, nothing could exchange my love for them.

i love the surprise given by my SW0902/SW1002 friends and my ultimate cousin, kak Syidah :DD

love you people very very very much

2010-09-11T00:28:00.000+08:00

Maybe, sometimes people never change.

You just never knew who they really were.

2010-09-08T00:43:00.001+08:00

Once an ugly duckling, always an ugly duckling.

Only miracle can change the fate,

however, there is no such thing as miracle.

:'(

2010-09-07T23:04:00.003+08:00

There's always someone that you would never forget.

No matter how much you try.

It may not still hurt as much

However, the scar is still there.

2010-08-30T01:10:00.003+08:00

" I've never believe in giving second chances because,

why is there a need of second chances when you can just do things right from the beginning "

Once looked away, i'm not turning back

Cos i'm done right here.

Okay, Bye !

2010-08-09T23:00:00.004+08:00

Don't be in a relationship because you're bored.

Be in a relationship because you're ready to.

I came across this words when i was online, which i truly agreed.

If you were to really ask me, do i really missed being in a relationship.

If i reply you " NO" - it would be a total lie, however i do not want to be in a relationship

just because i'm lonely.

It's not because that i'm still not over my ex bf.

yes indeed our relationship was a bad break up, however i know it was for the better for the both of us

and it is just a matter of time that things will end.

* well, not gonna elaborate about my past relationship*

i'm happy that he's happy with his new relationship.

i'm happy too that we ended.

I really miss being in love but I don't want to get hurt.

Therefore, i'm keeping my heart to myself for this time being.

I do not want anymore puppy-love and serious-relationship-say-only

I want someone that will love me for who I am,

that would not complain on how ugly and fat I am.

who would appreciate all those little things I did for him.

who love my insecurities, my nags, my longs to be pampered.

who gonna hold my hands in front of his friends and admit that we're together even before anyone ask him.

" ehh ( insert name),she's my girl! *looking me* "

who gonna bring me over to his house and let me get close with the family without being shy of my appearance.

who would look at other girls and says " only you, ain't no other"

who would assure me, whenever my insecurities comes and visits me.

important of all, who love me, my family and my friends as well.

am i too demanding? well, if the next guy that i gonna get involved with does not have all these.

well, i guess he must had something close to my ideal. that's why i give him the chance to be.

till now, i've yet to find you.

i will just wait and go on with the flow of life.

happiness comes to people that wait.

love yourself truly first, in order to be love by others.

2010-08-07T23:28:00.002+08:00

well, i was freaking bored that day. that i just simply asked my younger brother to sit with me

& i start taking pics with him.

upon the pics, i realised that we look a like (durhh, we're sibling) haha.

simply love him to the extent that if i do wanna have a baby, i would love to have someone like him.

naughty yet obedient. awww.

* did i just praised him too much *

i love to disturb him and hug him till dad actually told us that " you kids are like having an affair"

oh a big no no! it's against the law plus the religion. haha.

i love haziq because, he is adorable-ly sweet and irritating at the same time.

only siblings can be like that.

he used to tell me, not to have a boyfriend because if i do,

that shows that i do not love him. haha.

so naive of him. haha.

no matter what happens. haziq is still my favourite boy and that will not change :)

my favourite boy till the end of time :)

2010-08-01T20:06:00.003+08:00

Someday,

thing will eventually makes sense to you.

So, for now ...

Just laugh at the confusion,

smile through the tears

and keep reminding yourself

that everything happens for a reason

2010-07-31T00:29:00.002+08:00

well, im supposed to be either doing my factsheet or be asleep at this moment.

i know i know, i will drag myself to bed later okay.

it's a promised.

seriously, i got nothing to do right now

( apart for the fact that im supposed to rush my factsheet & newsletter now)

well, fcuk it okay.

things has been going on great these few days.

i'm being my happy for having a great friends around me.

however, to side track stuff.

this minor thing are just going on a lil too fast on my side.

it's too early to justify but let's see how we get thing going as day passes.

don't make promises which you are unsure that you can fulfill it or not.

i treat promises as a piece of paper.

once it's crumble, no matter how hard you try to make it proper again

the crumble would not go away.

i can't deny the fact that my heart is weaving but it's too early to confirm about it.

if this also does not work out,

please people don't ask me why i'm still in singlehood and i find love negative.

Juu's qoute:

my love is a balloon,

once the string snapped,

i'll be gone with the wind

and you would not see me again .

2010-07-26T00:15:00.003+08:00

happy birthday to you...

happy birthday to you ...

happy birthday to JESSICA TEO SOCK HUA

happy bithday to you ...

that girl on my right, is Jessica Teo.

it's her birthday today !

i wanna wish her a greatest birthday ever.

happy legalization Jessica Teo :))

i know i always disturb you with Kenneth.

it's just a joke that whenever i'm bored i would say.

i would disturb you until your face turns red.

till you blushes like nobody business.

i really want to thanks you from the bottom of my heart

for always being there, when ever i'm down.

thanks for listening to my grumble and problems.

thanks for all the wisdom words that you offered just to perks me up.

i dislike TEP right now, because our clique are now separated and we could not meet each other

often like before. it would take us weeks, before we could spend time together.

i miss going to starbucks, drinking and bitching about our life.

lastly, have a great day Jess.

hope it would be your best birthday ever :)))

my bestfriend

2010-07-19T01:00:00.003+08:00

that babe next to me is no other than my great bestfriend - girlfriend. officially on 19th July, she is leaving Singapore to study abroad for the next 3 years. yes, i gonna miss her like super crazy. she's been there through my ups & downs.

she is the first person that i would run to, when i have a problem.

she is my shoulder to cry on.

she is my pillar of support when i gave up.

practically, we grew up together and getting to know each other true colours.

we managed to know each other hidden words.

we know each other tears behind those fake smiles.

we do not even have to say out everything because we clearly understand each other.

as her bestfriend, im trying my very best not to shed tears in front of her.

pretending that im alright yet, im not.

i'm so gonna miss her.

babe, if you wanna know...

i kept quiet when you told me that your leaving on 19th because for me it was too early and i felt that i have not spend a lot of my time with you.

the day that i slept at 7.30am is when i was rushing to do your video that i gave it to you.

the reason that i keep myself busy with work, is because i'm trying to run away form the reality that

you are going away on the 19th July.

i know no matter how much i run away from facing the truth, the day would still come for you to leave.

however, i'd rather spend my mind off thinking your leaving so that i would not be hurt that much.

this passed few days, i've been thinking on how would my life be without you.

who do i run to, for that listening ear?

for that shoulder to cry on ?

for that hanging out ?

i know i can't be selfish. i gotta let you go peacefully and with the smile on my face.

i'm happy for you, that your pursuing your future.

but i gonna miss the hell out of you.

i could not get myself to say goodbye directly. therefore here is my last farewell.

babe, azdiyatul akmah.

take care of yourself and study hard. i know your character, you do not want to make others worry about you but if you really have problem that you cannot handle yourself. please, call me and we will talk about it okay. i know your a very independent girl and i know you would be very well taken care by your family and friends there. i really hope you would not forget me :) yes, i may not be there to face any problem with you but i promise you that what ever problem you have, you are not facing it alone. you got me to rely on.

i wanna thank you for being there always for me. listen to my whining and always pampering me :)

we're like a twin, so your problem are my problems too :))

anyway, my dad says; once your back from KL he will treat again to dinner at Holiday Inn Park View Hotel.

will be looking forward to see you. i'm looking forward for my birthday, because i know you would be there to celebrate with me.

girlfriend, love you sangat sangat ! take care okay. keep in touch okay. gonna miss you very muchiee.

love, julaiha

2010-07-12T00:47:00.007+08:00

things may not go as planned. why keep blaming people around, it just a plain waste of time. instead, get up to your feet and look at the other side of the coin and create a new pathway for yourself. there's no gain for you, to stuck in the moment of blaming others. you should just put all those a side and get back to the track of life.

life is tough, as long as you're still breathing you need to keep going and living. no matter how hard you fall and how many times you tripped down. Push yourself off the ground and start making miracles.

Always remember, everything in life happened for a reason. It may be your fate or destiny but it your own fate and destiny. No one can write your story except for yourself. people around you are just some character you meet through out your life.

they can leave a big impact in your life or they are just plain passerby.

happy birthday zai

2010-07-03T23:28:00.005+08:00

yes. it feel like days since i update this outdated blog of mine.

rather busy and lazy to update.

there's nothing much to blog about these days.

anyway, here's an update recently.

a happy birthday to my dearest brother, Muhammad Zainuddin :)

sorry, please ignore the fact that the birthday boy look so Undress as we tricked him on just to meet for lepak. it was a last minute and budget surprise for him.

however, it was filled with a huge amount of sincerity and love :)

we did something rather creative for him, specially from the 4 of us.

Din, Azie & I :))

it was a major last minute, half and hour before meeting up with b'day boy we create this at Fajar Mac before heading to Din's void deck. We had a great help from Din in persuading b'day boy to meet up for lepak. yeahh it was a great turn out.

anyway, had a great short celebration and glad that b'day boy was touched by our surprise.

it's not that we forgot our dearest brother birthday, but it was pre - planned. heheh.

i hope that the 4 of us would still have this friendship in time to come :)

happy birthday Zai :))

Cheer up and Smile :)

2010-06-11T23:39:00.003+08:00

This post is dedicated to my girlfriend, Azie...

Hey babe, i know things were tough for you for that past few days.

I felt bad for not being there when you were hurt,

when you cried yourself to sleep and I could not be there at that moment.

I only got to know it the next day, i'm so sorry about that .

However, all i want for you now is to stay strong and do not worry,

because i'm always here for you.

No matter, how busy both am I

just press that button on your handphone or tweet me away at Twitter.

I will be there, even if it was not physically you know i'm always there for you.

Yes babe, shit happens but do not worry because you got me to face it with.

You would not face it alone.

Babe, i know your stronger than this.

Don't let a small setback by an jackass turnover your life.

Prove that jackass wrong, by living your life happier with great laughter and happiness.

Live your life better and just let karma struck that jackass.

There's always a reason behind everything.

Behind every strong girl, there's always a Jackass that made her like this :)

Cheer up and smile :)

We're Starbucks Lover

2010-05-30T09:48:00.002+08:00

it's kinda a late update of photos, but it's worth to blog :)

Shelley, Jessica & I went out for our Starbucks at Marina Square :)

Sadly, Limin & Melody could not make it.

It's okay, we had our fun and as usual - bitchy stuff. hehe.

i really miss having Jessica, Melody and Shelley around me in class .

i miss Melody asking me " where are we eating later" - when class just started. haha.

i miss texting Jessica once i reach Choa Chu Kang Mrt .

i miss disturbing Shelley with Avi .

Ultimately, i miss having shared conversation with Limin, Jessica, Melody & Shelley

in class even though we sit super near each other.

heheh

i'm so excited for TEP stopover to be over and i'm so excited to be in Sem 2 because,

i can hear Melody asking me " where are we eating later "

i can text Jessica once i reach Choa Chu Kang Mrt

i can disturb Shelley :)))

Most of all, we can have our Shared Conversation on MSN :)))

love my dearest ladies !

19 May 2010

2010-05-19T23:06:00.003+08:00

deep within me, i feel insecure :( poly-life is seriously taking over me. i seems to live a fake life and i feel like im pretending to be someone that im really not. im glad that i have thoughtful classmates but i just do not feel that i fit in the crowd.

everyone in the class seems to be link with just 1 common thing - play sports .

i agree, i do not play sport - but that does not stop me from taking Sports & Wellness Management right ? i do not play sports - does not means that i dislike sports . i like sports but i do not want to play sport competitively - i'd rather play if during my leisure period.

*** im drowned in the silence rain just now ***

i felt so not in place, i really misses my secondary school environment .

in my class; some do play sports and some does not.

however, when it comes to class sports activity - we participate actively .

in my class; i do not have friends that keep complaining how fat they are - when they are skinny .

the complain " i'm so fat " has never existed in my class .

in my class; there is no clear division of cliques

everyone are just united as a class :)

i'm not trying to show that how bad my new classmate are ... they are awesome people however, things are just not doing great for me .

someone tell me;

" like seriously, do you even play sports ?"

" you don't even look like someone that play sports?"

" you're so fat "

" take up sports lah, you lazy "

- it's not that i'm lazy or what, it's just that poly sports team is not open for

training purpose, they are only open for competitive squad.

- yea, i do not play sports but that does not mean that i hate sports .

- who say every skinny people play sports ?

- how should someone who play sports look like anyway ?

i'm serious trying my very best to fit in, however, i feel weird. i like sports but maybe for competitive level- i'm not there .

please, don't judge me just by first impression and my cliques. my cliques; have been playing sports since like Forever while i'm like Rarely . Don't say i never try, because you are the one walking in my shoe and you don't know what i fee .

- only God know how i truly feels -

** how i wish i could just ignore these stuff and live life as per normal .

i miss being that sunshine in me . ***

i'm not a sport person but that doesn't mean that i'm not sporty and outgoing . i like sports as a leisure activity but not on competition level.

seriously, i do not know and i'm very upset about this .

* i cried as i type this blog *

12th may. 7.05pm

2010-05-13T11:52:00.002+08:00

12th may. 7.05pm :)

i love.

it's been awhile since we talked and i hear your voice :))

we're far in distance, yet you took the effort to make

me feel closer to you in my heart :))

what makes me love you the most,

" i don't have a babe. i have you ...

i spend my money calling you . i spend my time calling you . "

aww ~

how i feel so high and i blushed like no one business.

mummy was looking at me and she grins.

hehe.

boy, how i wish we were closer and distance is not the issue for us :)

i love

2010-05-07T11:49:00.004+08:00

alright i don't want to be label as someone ungrateful,

therefore i hereby thanks my gf,Azie for giving me opportunity :)

i get to take picture with my hot stuff; Awal Ashaari :)

he's so cute kann !

yeahh. not forgetting to wish my ultimate addiction;

Cesc Fabregas birthday on 4th may !

ahahahha. he's cute too !

2010-05-01T00:39:00.002+08:00

i feel just like a fish out of the water .
i don't feel that i can fit in the crowd .
everything seems so clear right now .
it's kinda too late to regret and i'm not feeling any better .
everyday is a dread for me,
however right here deep within me ...
i'm just trying my very best .

i pray for miracle to happen

it's hard to bid goodbye

2010-04-26T11:33:00.003+08:00

the hardest thing to do is to bid goodbye on stuff that holds a significant value to us. the stuff that really holds a significant value in my heart is saying my goodbye to my dearest home at jelapang. although i stayed there for only 6 years, but it still holds a great significant value in me. my dearest home, watches me grow, watching me having my ups & downs in life. watching me struggling with different problems like friendship, family and school. my dearest home, saw my tears and laughter. i sure gonna miss my home very much. a place where witness the fights and reconcile after a misunderstanding. my dearest home, watched how much i grown; from being a timid lil girl to someone that is more open minded and outspoken.
my dearest home, contain much memories that some i wished i could just stay at that moment and some just want to erase. however, overall i really love my dearest home.

no matter what, life just have to go on ...
right now, im living at my aunt's place. it's kinda cramp with a total of 14 people in a house but with that huge number of us, it's like an ever lasting laughter and jokes. i guess it's a rainbow after a huge thunderstorm. i gonna love my new house now.
i joked with everyone " today feel like the night of Hari raya, where everyone are so excited and are not asleep ! " - it's already 12.30pm but the kids are not asleep and they are having morning school. hehhe.

soon, i will upload the pics when i took while moving the stuff over to my aunt's place.
right now, my dearest lappy had just went for "operation" and still being hospitalised.
i need to save up $400 before i can have him discharged :))

xoxo, julaiha

2010-04-21T15:57:00.003+08:00

19th april; the start of my T.E.P; the stopover is event planning management.
things right now, personally i find it a up and down stuff &
i guess i'm struggling here to hold on.
all i wish is that, i have the encouragement to pull things through :(
school sucks for me :(
& i really want this semester to be over very fast.

Greatest love is when you love yourself :)

2010-04-08T01:28:00.003+08:00

hmpk. i know my lil cousin is trying to be that lil-clever-matchmaker for me, but things aren't just doing great for me.
i received a text from her saying that she just passed my number to this friend.
i could not say anything because, she had already passed it, not like she is asking my permission before passing it on.
she was just informing me that she had already passED my number.

yeah, so we did texted a lil yesterday. everything was pretty alright until thing got worse when i did not reply his text
and he gave me like another 3 textes before giving me a call.
like durh - i did not pick up his call & what irks me the most is like,
he is acting like someone so important to me, that i have to report to him every single thing i'm doing.

hello boy, you're not even my boyfriend. why would in the world, do i have to report to you everything.
& you don't need to call up on me to check.

i freaking hate it when he sent me this text
"did you receive my text?"
" nevermind. so, you didn't even realise that i call you just now? "
- excuse me, technically i saw you were calling but i just did not wanna answer it.
i just find it pretty much irritating cos you are acting as if you own me ( which you NOT)
i do not mind, if you wanna be friends with me, but not to the extent that i have to report stuff to you.
hey we're not even together and there is no string attached.

seriously speaking, you're starting to freak me out and i'm really ain't interested.
right now, i hate the fact that my lil cousin are doing this to me.
yeah, im jolly well know that you're freaking attached with your dearest boyfie
but that doesn't mean that i'm not being jolly well happy staying single.
who say you need a boyfie to be jolly well happy with your life?

i know you're trying to help here.
but i'm doing great by myself
and i just want things to happen naturally.
i know that my mr. is somewhere out there, it's just that our path has yet to intersect.
i'm not in the mood and i'm not seeking for a boyfie right now.
i just want things to get better for myself and family right now.
other stuff can wait and their time will come eventually.

all i want right now is for my dearest to know that,
i'm happy with my single life eventhough i do get jealous seeing lovebirds.
but i will just cast that aside because there are other things in life
that needs my attention.

if that mr. do come by, i won't give it a pass.
not to worry, i will inform everyone if that happens.

Greatest love is not a love by someone
Greatest love is not when you love someone
Greatest love is when you love yourself :)

when i was younger and naive

2010-04-05T00:04:00.003+08:00

let me bring you people back to my old days :)
when i was kinda naive in my life and i get head over heels over artiste. hehe.
everyone would have gone through that epic moment, right :))

here is my #1 addiction :))

my ultimate all-time favorite football player, Francesc Fabregas Soler (Arsenal)
he was my love at the first sight (one-sided, like duh) haha.
i was secondary 1 at that time, when he first started playing for the Arsenal club.
From then on, he is my favorite boy. hehe.
let's calculate, it's been like 6 years :) (wah, if only I can be that faithful in reality)

Naively, i even dream of getting married to him :)) - that is what every girl dream to marry their favorite idol.
i will jokingly say, we will get married at the Emirates Stadium :)) hehe.
my friends would also join in the fun, by saying about their favorite idol too.
* don't tell me, you never had that kinda illusion *

When i was in secondary 3, i told my friend that.
When i'm 20 years old, i would take a holiday trip to London - just to meet him personally :)
* but when i'm 20 years old, i would have just graduated from NYP * hehe

Let me tell you a piece of so-called-secret.
Before i choose my NYP, Sports&Wellness Management course ...
i was making a joke about - how i can be a certified personal sports psychologist to Fabregas :)
* i know, dream on *

alright enough, i just cannot get over the fact that he's so cute :)
i've been supporting him ever since;
- he is 16 years old until now, 23 years old ( this year,2010)
- he did not know how to speak english, until he speak fluent english
- he as a ordinary mid-fielder until he became the Captain for Arsenal
okay, now im being superb freaky. hehe.

adding to my ultimate idolise of him,
i love the fact that he is very faithful to his girlfriend.
he had been together with her even before he played for Arsenal.
it's such a long-time relationship.
i love it!
*unlike other famous international footballer,
that just go around changing partners
as if they are doing their regular soccer practice :)*

ilovefabregas :)

i'm losing my patience

2010-04-03T01:47:00.005+08:00

sometimes, how i wished i was ego, hard-headed, irresponsible, disrespectful, carefree,ignorant just like my elder sister.

for myself, i'm so sick of being the nice girl, understanding, always following rules, soft-hearted person in the household.

being too nice, people are just taking the advantage of myself. i'm just being people's doormat and it really hurts me deep inside. even when being too nice, i was scolded for other's fault - which is totally unfair for myself. while i'm being blamed, others just freely walk away.the only reason i got for that was that " it's hard to talk sense you your elder sister"

ohgosh! like excuse me! she's is still your daughter and you ought to make her at least have the basic courtesy and respect when at home. ohgosh!

the most thing i freaking hate my elder sister to the very core is just that - she can just freaking pretend like nothing is her fault and she is the angel one at home. just like she is not even responsible for doing any house chores.

her only reason to back her up - from doing house chores is that she is working.

timeout! foryourfreakingbrainlessinformation; me, myself is also working. which makes us equal.

you, working extra hour? hell ya right, get this in your head. when you're having your off-day, you went out from morning till the next morning causing you to have less/no rest for work. Hey! it's like spitting in the air - which makes you to be more dirtier. useyourfreakingbrain. having off-day, you can just rest at home to rejuvenate yourself, yes you can go out but there is no need for you to like go out like the whole 24hours right in a day.

i'm not trying to be disrespectful here but i'm just losing my patience and my losing my cool. i'm tired of taking the blame of what i did not do. i'm tired of being the nice and understanding girl. i'm tired of being used and taken advantage of. you want me to respect you, hey! try by respecting others first. show some basic courtesy and respect at home first.

there is just one thing i wanna say to you;

Girl, seriously speaking you had lost your respected position since that day and i'm not sure if you can be respected again or not.

sometimes i wonder, why i have such sister at the very place. but fact cannot be changed, you're my biological elder sister :(

5N2 2010 Gathering

2010-03-27T01:09:00.003+08:00

Group picture w/o kaimeng. Cos he is so busy with his Roller Blade.

Kaimeng & I , waiting for bus to East Coast Park

Azie & Ivan

ZhiHao & I

GF,Azie & I

Had a trial roller blading with Kaimeng

Kaimeng & I

Ivan & I

Din & I

i had a fall at a downhill, near the water skii area. superb pain.

Instead of staying at home and grumble about Monday's Blues ...
My dearest 5N2 classmates meet up for a gathering at EastCoastPark!
Although it was not a full-attendance it did not stop us from meeting up and enjoying ourselves.

As usual, you cannot expect us to meet up on the exact timing.
Therefore, there are some delay due to some late-comer. * which is so common*

Once at EastCoastPark, we had a free time to ourselves.
It's been a so long since i played roller-blade, therefore i try to give it another try to it.
Which means, im so proud of myself that i actually skate to Bedok Jetty.
Yeap. from the above picture. as you can see, i had a great downhill fall.
it was not partly my fault because i forgot to apply the break causing a fall. hehe.

after a long day at EastCoastPark, we head to Parkway Parade to have our dinner.
i'm so proud and touched by Ivan whom came all the way from Woodlands just to have dinner with us.
even though he got lost on his way to EastCoastPark. heheh.
well, overall im proud of him :)

In the bus, we took a few more pictures while the guys gather together
and start talking about MOTORBIKES - so boring ! hehhe.

even though not many were present, it did not brings down the fun.
well, i really love my 5N2 classmates from the bottom of my heart.
yes, friends come and go but memories stays.

all the 5 years we went through together, it's so meaningful and i love it .
hopefully that we will have more of this outing :)
xoxo, my 5N2 :))

Result is out

2010-03-25T02:06:00.002+08:00

sometimes, things does not turn out as you plan.
just like how my results is.
yes, people i failed my economic paper like badly - F (supplementary paper)
*shocking right*
me too, in the shocking state right now too.

however, it's already happening and you cannot run away from reality.
*reality check*
julaiha failed her Microeconomic paper.

so back to reality, i had to retake my Microeconomic paper.
honestly, i was so demoralized when i get my results
however, thanks to my friends ...
they comfort me and assure me that things gonna be alright.
thanks to:
- jessica
- limin
- shelley
- azie
- jeremy
xoxo people.

right now, me trying to survive this supplementary paper
&& let's everyone pray that i can clear this paper with all my might.

i'm not gonna let today's despair affect my future :)

i know you miss me :)

2010-03-19T22:46:00.003+08:00

Absence makes the heart fonder ...

i guess i agree to it totally.

Absence also makes you realize on how much you have taken someone for granted and getting too familiar with
a person make you forget how much they mean to you seriously.

Just now when my parents got home after they went out for some issue with my grandfather.
They told me that, my grandfather misses me.
Growing up with him, i know he is someone that does not know how to display his love to his child and grandchildren.
I felt so touched and speechless because I, once hate him very badly due to his bad manners and the way he dislike my family
even though we had live together for 16 years.

19th March 2010, it's the best day of my life :)
My Grandfather indirectly say he miss me.

When he got to know that i'm currently taking my driving license, he was smiling widely and replied that,
" so, when she pass she can drive me out " - he said to my mum.
awww... im so touched and speechless.

although he never say he miss me, i know he does :)
xoxo, grandfather !

A man with no words but thousand hidden feeling behind those a few words spoken - my grandfather :))

2010-03-12T02:05:00.004+08:00

sometimes, i just hope that you will understand me.

Soul-Searching

2010-03-09T23:22:00.003+08:00

look up!
that is my Astrology Single's Horoscope :)
it's not something that i really trust in it,
but it just that sometime what is being preview will make you reflect on yourself without your own realization :))

Hi Julaiha! Daily Single's Horoscope Tuesday March 9
When you put your mind to it, you can move mountains.
Now, the question is,
do you really want to be with someone who has to be convinced to be with you?
Of course not.
You want someone who understand how great you are.

instantly, i was shocked with the saying.
a part of me agree to it and it make me reflect.

did i really want to be with someone that has to be convinced to be with me ?
or, someone who understand how great i am ?

how many people have i neglected just because i keep assuring myself
that they cannnot be with me. how much they cannot keep up to my standard.
i will just find ways to assure myself that we're not compatible.
they just seems to be lacking in something, that i just cannot be convinced that we can be together.

after this sentence shoot me,
do you really want to be with someone, who has to be convinced to be with you?

it make me think back...

yes, i do want someone that understand how great i am but isn't that the same person
that can convinced me pretty well that we can be together?

well, right now im just gonna follow my heart and let the rest to be with God.
once there is a sparks, fireworks and chemistry :)

East Coast Park :)

2010-03-08T14:28:00.003+08:00

it may come kinda late, but it's better to be late than never right ? hahaha
here are some picas from my outing with my poly mates.
we're celebrating to
- OUR 7 WEEKS FREEDOM
- CLOSURE TO 2ND SEMESTER IN NYP
- KENNETH'S VERY BELATED BIRTHDAY
- AVI'S FAREWELL TRIP TO INDIA FOR 1MONTH,10DAYS

jessica & me :))

resting at Bedok Jetty, enjoying the breeze

jessica - juu- jerman :))

avi & jiewen :))

guest of the day ! Kenneth Yap !

Best part of the day,
Kenneth did not suspect anything about the whole trip that we're gonna celebrate his birthday :)
love love :)

we cycled, nearly cover the whole of east coast park
except for the fact that we were tired half way :)
but it was like a good workout ! hahaha.

we had a seafood dinner as the whole, 9 of us !
we had;
- stingray
- cockles
- BBQ chicken
- Kangkong
- Rice
it was such a filling and kinda spicy ! hahaha.

at the end of the day, it was lucky that
i have such a sweet cousin and thanks to her boyfie that is non-cold blooded
to pick me, avi & jerman up at east coast.
special thanks to Kak Syidah & Abg Mimi :))

although we got home late, but it's worth a lot
as it have such a beautiful memories.

p.s: next outing to Henderson Waves ... but have to wait for Avi's return from India :))

People do Change

2010-03-06T21:06:00.002+08:00

my secondary classmates will find the first sentence a
typical sentence that i always use :) ( w/o the 2nd sentence)

however at this moment, i gonna love this full statement,
cos it describe me A LOT :))

People change over time, it certainly not an exception for Julaiha Rosli.
indeed i happily admit that i've changed however i really hope i did change for the better.

not to worry, people do not change entirely, there is always a small part of them deep within.
all you need to do is just get to know me lil more better and you will then know the true Julaiha Rosli.
right now, whenever i met up with my secondary school friends they will end up with this commet;
" Juu, you've changed sia"
haha. yes people, i'd changed. hahaha.

Experience made people much wiser :)

Ever thought why i became more sarcastic?
it's simple, it's because i had enough of getting upset over small matters and g
etting very very sensitive over something that people find it ridiculous.

experience taught me to be more open-minded and less sensitive
till right now, im just scared that my sarcastic did made anyone hurt.

The only thing i hope that, people around me can accept me as time passes.
Everyone is changing as experience are making them wiser in life.
i'm just learning on how to improve myself for my self-benefit !

Wanna know my old Julaiha Rosli,
go ask my bestfriends ... secondary school friends
and you will be shocked to see the drastic different :))
like seriously !

xoxo, julaiha !

2010-03-02T12:36:00.001+08:00

im walking away

2010-02-26T13:50:00.002+08:00

Have you ever thought of what you will feel, when you have been waiting for that special someone for so long. Thinking that they are patiently and faithfully also waiting for you.

What will you feel then, when you call up that special someone to give a surprise.
however, you are being surprised instead when someone else picks up the call for him/her and tells you that
he/she is already attached.
you will certainly be hurt to the maximum as you felt that, all this while you have been wasting your time on something that is uncertain.

people change as day passes.
time does not wait for anyone.

whenever you feel insecure, deep within your heart you will hope for someone to just be there beside you.
assuring you by saying " hey, don't worry everything gonna be alright and i'm here with you"

i'm a very dependent girl, who needs someone to rely on. you had your chance, therefore ...
i need someone to be there when im feeling insecure and feeling so down.
someone to protect me and someone that i can feel secured with.
i guess, you _____________.

im walking away, from this.

happy birthday, Hazwani Abd Mois :)

2010-02-23T11:46:00.002+08:00

HAPPY 19TH BIRTHDAY, HAZWANI ABD MOIS :)

*look up*
the pretty lady above, is my dudette, my bestfriend :)
i just wanna shout out to you,
enjoy your last-teen-hood to the fullest.

i love the fact that we became bestfriend,
i could still remember the first meeting so clearly in my mind.
we shared so much memories.

no matter what happen, you're my bestfriend
and will always be :)
b'cos we got a lot of memories and joke of the day to create. hahaha.

your presence made a big difference in my life,
you're my LISTENING EAR :))

specially for you,
i wish you all the very best in what ever you do,
not to worry that i will always be rooting for you.
hope that you succeed in your life and achieve your dreams...
most importantly, i wish that our friendship lasts forever :))

love you from the bottom of my heart,
julaiha

need you

2010-02-22T21:24:00.002+08:00

im feeling superb insecure right now and at this very moment, im just hoping that you are here next to me and just tell me that " babe, it's okay and everything gonna be fine. don't worry"

thanks to my microeconomic paper, it seriously demoralize to the maximum right now.
im trying my very best not to stay demoralize and get it affected so much.

please smile juu.

happy birthday Zahirah Omar :)

2010-02-19T23:42:00.003+08:00

ZAHIRAH OMAR

HAPPY 19TH BIRTHDAY ZAHIRAH OMAR :)

that girl above is my dudette, my best friend.
i just wanna wish you a happy birthday.
hope you enjoy your end of teens-hood to the very fullest,
with your loved one, Syamil :))

anyway, i could still NOT remember how we get close ... but right now, it does not matter cause .
you're my best friend now and will always be.

your presence made a lot'sa different in my life.
you're my very much LAUGHING MACHINE :))

specially for you,
i wish you all the very best in what ever you do. not to worry, i will always be there and be rooting for you. love you many many :) hope you succeed in life and achieve all your dreams.
good luck in what ever you do & hope you distinction your exams :)) hahaha.
most importantly, i really wish that our friendship will lasts forever :)

love you from the bottom of my heart,
Julaiha Rosli :)

i know you miss me

2010-02-08T13:58:00.002+08:00

it's been a while since i last update my lovely blog:)
i have been so busy with school and work.

however, i cannot complain because there is more work waiting ahead for me.
like next week schedule for my work is;
Wednesday FULL shift, Saturday FULL shift, Sunday 6.30 - 10.30pm (CNY week)

at this very moment, i'm thinking, why am i even doing this?
how i miss very much those time where i either go out or just stay at home every weekend
with friends or family.
when you do not even have to think about money and just spend as much as you want.
i miss that bimbo-life.

well, i just hope i will get fine so that i will not skip any working day
since yesterday i just skipped my FULL shift due to a high fever.

side track: i just realize that my daddy is so THICK-SKINNED superb to the maximum!
yesterday, when he came back from work he enter my room and shoot me this freaking question
" adik, you sick? must have miss me so much right"
i was like " huh ? NO ! "
then he touch my forehead ... but it had already temp.down
" now not hot, cos just now you hear my voice on the phone, saying im otw home"
ewwww ! super thick-skinned daddy i had here.
but he's cute though !

right now, i gonna go back to earth & do my sport project
submission date is TOMORROW, 9TH FEBRUARY.
goodbye, my lovely reader :)
xoxo,julaiiha

i'm going head over heels for you

2010-01-31T21:53:00.002+08:00

i'm going goo-goo-ga-ga.

time check: 8.30pm, your call since 1 january 2010 :)
im not being sarcastic here, but i just find it lovely nice.
we start off by having:

every morning and night call
to
once a few days
to
once every few weeks
to
twice a month.

i admit, i nearly gave up and i do not mind to move on,
however, when i heard your voice through the phone ...
i can't help to fall again.
i was touched that you remembered me,
i was touched that you took the initiative in calling me.
i was touched by the sweet talking.
although i know that all boys, do sweet nothing talks, but when it come to you ... i'm not sure myself.
i try so hard to hold back, but i fall at the instance i heard your voice.
you make my heartbeat leap :)

the cute part is that our conversation were cut-off 3 times,
but each time the conversation were to be cut-off,
i know you will try to find your means and ways to get it through it.
i was very moved when you said
" i do not want, you to have a bad image of me, the line was cut-off unintentionally"
at that point of time, i was ~melting ~ and awwww ~~

sincerely, i just wanna tell you that ...
thanks for not giving up of me. thanks for holding on to me, even when you know that distance may cause a problem :) thanks for the call, today. it brighten up my life and i really enjoy this so much.

we were joking about,
morning caller: i have to wait another month, so that i can see you...
juu: haha, yes. it's been so long since we met.
m.c: yea. since i was in sec 1 ... tll now .. so long :(
juu: yea. so since you have waited that long, it would not make any diff. if you were to wait for me for 1 month ?
m.c: haha. sure, i will wait. hope to see you :))

aww... im going head over heels for this boy :D i hope this feeling will lasts ...

<3>
every hour like a day
everyday lasts forever
but what else am i gonna do
i'd wait forever and a day for you
i wait up wait up for you <3

Start Studying Julaiha

2010-01-26T12:02:00.007+08:00

i just made myself something nice, specially for myself.

it may help me, i not sure ...

saying my NO to
FACEBOOK
TWEETDECK
MSN
BLOG

but i guess this will come in handy pretty soon.
but right now, im not sure. hahahah.
cos, the motivation to start studying is not there :)

2010-01-21T02:21:00.003+08:00

went over your page, but sadly ...
nothing perks me up.
yes, there were memories but a short ones.

some things are just meant to be left unsaid and untouched anymore.
let's put the stuff the way it is and move ahead in life.

Toh Limin

2010-01-21T00:18:00.002+08:00

happy burpie day to my dearest girlfriend here.
TOH LIMIN :))

happy 21st birthday limin.
i'm glad in having a friend like you.

yes, indeed i am naughty
and sometimes kinda hard to handle
always making you angry and so,
disturbing you non-stop.

i always purposely, ask you to go to school
for like a pathetic 1 lesson ...
waking you up late for lesson ...

however, never once you complain
or even says that you dislike me.
you would just say ...
"i dun hate you"

i remember how we used to strangers
and thanks to Jessica that i get to know you, during your 1st day in school.
all the memories we spent in semester 1 till now,
- Bugis (sedate ladies)
- Marina Baragge
- Singapore Flyers
- BBQ at Ray's
and etc etc. hahah.
i cherish it so much.

thanks so much for being there,
when i really needed someone to talk you.
you were always there to listen to my grumbling and my bitching.

we share secrets together and all the laughter
we shared ...
i love you very muchh.

lastly, wanna say ...
i'm sorry for last friday after Netball game
we ditch you off.
it's because we 're all going to buy your present at town :))
sorry we keep laughing at you in the tutorials
it's because we're discussing on how to celebrate your birthday :))
sorry for us not telling you that we're coming to RP to support you
it's because it meant to be a surprise !

anyway, hope you love our Present && hand-made Birthday Poster :))

love you so much, from the bottom of my heart !

i'm glad it ended

2010-01-17T21:05:00.003+08:00

well oh well, i know after this post is being published. by all means, you would be even reading this. it would be from my babe that informed you, or even when you could finally understand me, which resulted in me writing this post. yes, i will post pretty much everything in my life and which i want others to know what is going on with my life.

firstly, i just wanna tell you that i dislike the way you get things around. the timing is just ain't right and i totally hate it to the freaking core. just when i have already cleared everything in my mind, you came back and restore it. why can't you just live your life. i do not even care if you are still engulf with freaking guilt. as what i gonna say, you deserve it very well. i'm not being sarcastic but i'm just being plain true right here.

~ have you ever tried sleeping with a broken heart, well you could try sleeping in my bed ~

dude, what i can say right now is that. i have already forgiven you sincerely, but i never forgets what happened. i just treat it as a lesson learnt from a bad nightmare. it's hard to forget someone that used to be so meaningful in your life, but i'm fine right now and i love my life now. i'm getting fine, after all the pain and shits happened.

which rules states that even if you're forgiven you have to start talking like per normal?
it's like my freaking personal stuff lahh, i wanna talk to you again or not ?
who are you in my life sehh?
you're just someone i USED to know back then only.
it's up to myself whether i wanna talk to you again or not...
right now, i just feel that i'm better off NOT TALKING to you !

you know what, im glad that you could now make it to my present and hopefully not in my future. because i love the people i have right now by my side. you can help me in a way, just by getting your butt out of my life and be a stranger.

you said, you wanted to talk to me ... however, for me, i do not think that we have anything to talk about. eversince you make yourself clear, we already had nothing in common, even to talk about. there is nothing to make things clear because everything is so clear and i'm jolly well done and over with it.

memories do visits but why bother to let it replay in your mind ?
just shut that thoughts away, and treat it just like a nightmare.

dude, we're living in 2010, now.
why bring up the past which is like a 2008 -2009 stuff ??

i'm happy with my life now, because i have finally accept the current fate
and i've moved on and i'm ain't looking back because the slightest hope, i had already buried together last year.

p.s: the thing that is freaking pissed me off, is that ...
you are coming to my babe and telling all this sorry-shits
when i have already erased you and i have already moved on.
you did the same old thingy last year .
i'm freaking pissed-off.

dude, i know you have jolly well moved on too. so just let things be. don't bring something from the past with you to the present.

i believe this :
- everything happen for a reason, and why he could not manage to be in your present and your future.

- karma, what goes around comes around ...

- when your love does not happen with this person, it just mean that someone else loves you more.

Finale: I love my 2010, and i'm glad your not part of it. i've moved on and i'm so proud of myself.
my life is close to prefection without you.

P.S: Your current unstable relationship hiccups, does not have anything got to do with me. it's just fate and destiny.

i feel that, you're not worth to be even in my thoughts now.