HaPPiiEe sweet 16th BirthDae to Miss Nur Aisyah Binte Matsuni
at last dh 16 rupenye... haha. dh big gal sehh. haha.
wishing her very best for her biggest obstacle in 2009 her O level...
dear for your present... hendaklah ditanguhkn kerana gajiku blm masuk deh... haha...
my wish for you is... - enjoy ur last moment in your CDSS... - study hard! - stay funny & cute always... - find ur Mr. Right... - pass ur O lvl & make it to ur desire poly:))
lastly... jgn naugthy2...
love you always my lil twin sis...
sincerely:JUU
3:14 PM
can see on the furthest right... the couple Dudettes Waniiee Juu&Waniiee sensored pic. haha. SO UNGLAMOUR in da bus...after the dae at marina barrage Dudettes: Waniiee&Juu us again... busy searchin for the chocolate chip. candid by Waniiee Dudettes: Wa&Juu&Ba Dudettes:Bahiirah Us again...
hehe. there is some more pics, maybe updates another time... kinda tired... hehe...
2:16 AM
here a glimpse of my resolution for 2009... they are not rank to its priority... just random thots...
1. bring myself near to my own religion again... its b'cos as each dae passes, we're getting older & we wont know when is the time dt GOD g'na take us back to HIM... & not only the old ones will die 1st.
2. get a good results for my O level... having a good results, ensure a better future. since S'pore is a certificate-come-first country.
3. be a better daughter to my family... i can haf as many frens out there, but i only has 1 family to love.
4. be a good buddies to all my GFs&BFs... true friends will be there, in your good&bad times
5. be independent... to prepare myself for the future...stand on my own feet& make my own decision. the people ard me are just to advice me to help me out.
6. to forget the BAD memories in 2008... learn from the mistakes i made in 2008, to help me in surviving my 2009.
7. be a better sister to my siblings... the closest family member to me & they knew my feelings.
will update more on my resolution... i'm kinda sleepy liao... hehe...
overall... all i know is that i want to be a better person in 2009, but to still kip the same old me... i love myself! & dat's make me special... & dat's is SOO JUU...
hehe...
too tired to tink:JUU
1:06 AM
i'm back & tired from the outing wif mii dudettes Wa&Ba... haizz... had so much fun todae. took some pics... hehe... we went to Marina Barrage... spent sometime dere to enjoy the breeze & the beautiful view. saw a couple shooting their wedding pic. nice choice of place. hehe.
dun noe wad struck Ba, she kip askin when&how to go home... padehal kite baru jugak sampai...
Wa suggest to drop by at Town... shopping lar minah tu (Wa)... hehe... went to Taka...Far East... on the way to Far East, on the escalator... i was lookin at this angmoh-the wife... i'm scared her head will hit the ceiling, but then her husband... was smiliing to me... wad to do? SMILE BACK arh... hehe
Ba's foot kena blister... kecian dier. so we sat at Starbuck opposite Far East... drank my MOcha Frapp. had some chait-chat... including the jokes...
ouh not to forget... i told Wa&Ba abt my 2009 MAIN resolution * to get myself near to my religion path again* Wa supports but Ba kinda thot its kinda funny at 1st... haha... its oso funny to me at first...
when we wanna head home... a group of young lad... were gossiping about us. thot that we didn't know how to go home. plz lar ehh... pikir kau byknye pandai?... kite stakat nk reconfirm je pe? typical busybody...
in the bus... Wa made up an accent... talking in Bahasa Melayu Baku... its funny when u hear it... it sound lyke Indonesian accent rather than Pure Malay...
new word created by Wa... kite akan 'sejuk keluar'... direct translation to english we will 'chill out'... its may not look funny... but the way she sound... its really funny... my stomach hurt... due to the too much laughter...
its been days or months since i had diz nostalgic moment-laugh out loud... thanks to them:Wa&Ba
we met up wif Zaman at BukitPanjangPlaza... told Zaman about my resolution... & he was very proud of me...yeah... haha. issit for real or not? i oso not sure...
Wa&Ba oso plan to 'sejuk keluar' again cnt promise..bt will try my very best to it... hehe... love mii dudettes... g'na spend my time wif them... to mii dearest Waniiee... pray for her safe trip to Bangkok... sl'mt pergi&kembali ke tanah air... haha... jgn lupe PRESENT. hehe
i guess i will be meeting my dudettes:Wa&Ba tmr... hehe... to have our chill-out session... i'm pretty sure, i nid them by my side currently... since my dudette Wanie is going to Bangkok dis coming thrusdae... its like a farewell party for her... & its has been sometime since i had met her & had some conversation wif her... miss having her around by my side suddenly
chat wif her at msn to noe the full detail for tmr... before she ended our conversation...
here a glimpse... Wani Mois says: so bsk kau g kan?? Wani Mois says: anyway, i need to know what's bothering you. i know you have problems. we could talk about everything and anything tmr. Wani Mois says: msg me if you're going. Wani Mois says: bye!
before i cud reply, she had sign out... i guess i nid to meet her... there is so much stuff i wanna burst out to her... i can't hide it from her anymore... she is my dearest dudette, whom i can't possibly lie to...
she is the one, whom i usually run to when i haf my problem... i guess i will run into her tmr...
to mii dearest dudette Waniiee... i'll join u & Ba tmr... love ya...
hugs&kisses...
miss ur company:JUU
11:30 PM
today... as per usual, i woke up late... around 11.30am. i slept late yesterday, ard 1am. i was supposed to be present at werk todae, but den... no one wake me up & dad didn't say anytin to me yesterday. so i guess, im nt werking todae. hehe.
so here is the bored-detail, on how i spend my day...
had my shower... i watch the cubioc-sized-tv... while nana&haziq were busy playing the laptop... haiz, so i just indulge on the tv program. once bored with the tv program... i grab my storybook... i spend 2 or wad hrs reading, which i felt that the time does pass so fast. to my shock, i didn't even had my breakfast at the first place... ard 4pm... my elder kuzz: kak ikin drop by... i ate a bowl of green bean soup... to please my granny, as she has heat it up, especially for me..
aww, thanks nyayi(granny)...
around 6pm, nana&haziq went to BukitPanjangPlaza... i didn't tag along, as i wasn't feel well... pamper myself to the nice comfy bed & laptop in front of me... chck on imeem for songs...but i wasn't attracted to it.
i off my laptop at 7pm to catch my taiwanese drama. my granny, once again... nag again... coz i haven had any proper meal since morning... & she scared i will get my gastric again... i just told her dat... once im hungry, i will eat... to my surprise, she had dish up ketam masak lemak just for me... its has been a while since i ate that dish... aww, felt the loved... i can't possibly deny the temptation... so that is the only proper meal i had for the whole day...
when nana&haziq got home with my parents... nana gave me, my favourite sushi... ...aww... todae, i felt so much cared... thankie mii beloved family...
its not that i dun wan to eat... i just dun haf the appetite to eat... sorry if my sudden change, cause any discomfort to mii family... didnt mean to made them worry about me. i'll be fine... i just need some quiet time by myself... to sort things in my mind... once im done with it... i'll be fine as usual...
i can appreciate a little time-out for myself...
love her family:JUU
nid some own-quality-time-out
10:30 PM
Sunday, December 28, 2008
im bored... n i start my blog- hopping. to see any updates of mii galfrens n boyfrens... hehe hmm... i pity mii gf azie... she was updating her blog halfway... when blogger site got trouble... haha. kecian dier...
i dun noe, how many blog i had hopped... bt all of them are all my schmate's blog... yeah... miss seeing them around in school.
hope to meet up wif them somedaes... i guess the next time we'll all be meeting is the release of O Level Results...
suddenly, i remember sumthing... todae haf soccer match... Thai Vs Viet... my support goes to Thailand... hehe.. has my fav.player in it... No.8...S.Nutnum... hehe.
kinda in a high mood now... okay gtg... wanna catch the math GO THAILAND!:JUU
11:23 PM
i feel so blessed... having my besties by my side... during my downs times. they are like my paracetamol to my illness... just by having them by my side, i feel more serene n cared... love them so much. thnks for their care&concern to mii...
btw... i was surfing the net... this caught my attention: MyHotComments
i feel so much better when i read this quote(the above)...
but deep inside... im currently feeling what the below quote wrote... i guess my Gfs were right though...
deep inside every strong girl... there is always a scared little girl...
i wanted to cry out my hurt... but these tears jus won't flow... i guess im just too tired to cry... my tears has dry up, even before i could cry out the pain...
azie told me dat, she is sure one day i will cry... when i tink back the memories... she may be right for sure, but im certain... in dis current moment i wont be crying... b'cos, im feeling numb all over... im too numb to have the energy to cry out...
hope dat i will be strong n get dis over with... the SOoneR...the BetteR
numb: Juu:))
9:25 PM
stuck here... all alone in diz empty space- my empty house... everyone is doing their own stuff... leading their own life... somehow, i felt all alone to myself... how i wish i cud juz lay in my comfy bed... hugging my pillow... tuck myself nicely under the blanket... not sleeping but juz restin... awaits as the time passes, not waiting for anyone... thru dat, i cn truly escape myself... escape from all the pain... hurt... trouble... problem... nags... but wad cn i do? i had to face diz...eventually. as daes passed...i felt afraid... afraid to see the future...tomorrow... i wish the year 2008, do not come to an end... b'cos when 2009 came... i had challenges to face... my results... dat g'na be my turning point of my life.... my family... dt has to undergoes financial crisis. i hope my upcoming pay, cud help them somehow... i dun mind, not being able to pamper myself wif my pay, as long as i cn haf my complete family by my side...
i guess i had finally awake from my beauty sleep... im missing mii beloved ezam, so suddenly... how much i miss him... realise how much he care n love mii. sorie if i had ever hurt u in any way... i promise dt i will be a good gal n won't make u worry about me so much... love ya... miss having to run to u.. in tears... asking for comfort, the shoulder dat i used to cry on...
you can b irritating sumtime, bt dat's the way u shower mii ur attention... love u sgt2... g'na treasure u from now on... miss the hugs dt u used to offer...
aniwae... hugs&kisses specially for you... love ya:Juu
i guess... i will turn my back to these familiar faces... they understand my hurt n joy... they are my listening ears... they are my shoulder to cry on... i miss them so much... no ones could replace them... i love them... sincerely from the bottom of my heart... muachkz... hugs n kisses...
6:34 PM
i was slapped wif a news of hym. well nt to worry, im rather fine. i suddenly felt better off this way. i finally felt that i cn breathe n free from all the struggling that i made, all this while. all i wish was that, he would realise his mistake n nvr to treat her worse but better, as he has some experience now. haizz... im suddenly missing all my galfrens n boyfrens... i guess i nid them by my side...
maybe... a miracle hidden within??
on the other hand... while i was on MSN... my beloved Fitri... contact mii again... ouh i miss Fitri alot... how i wish, we're able to meet up together to recollect the times that we had lost for the past few years... Fitri, you had never once left my mind... i love u sangat-sangat. how i wish, we could be together back again like in the past. how much i miss those times we share... love u sangat2... no one could replace you in my heart... love love love love you sgt sgt sgt...
hoping for a better future for us... love u alwaes....
hmm.. i guess. i had juz pulished a HIStory book...haha. its all in the HIStory now. neither present nor future, i guess. maybe it the best for us... dat wad u alwaes said... all the memories will only be a memories for us. tinking back those times... it either makes me regret or happie. it had ended jus like the way you wanted...
i guess not only mii dt is tired of the 'roller-coaster ride'... and its time for a new game... how about a 'pirate ship' or 'bumper car'?
there's no more S.B & S.M anymore... its all in de past now... you had ended it... as wad u wished... thnks aniwae.
to that 'regular paparazzi' n ' regular reporter'... too bad you will not haf anymore 'hot story' to gossips about... in order to care for your feelings... we had ended it, as what you have been waiting for... thnks paparazzi n reporter...
to s.b, you can now lead your life as you wish... there will be no s.m in ur life to even bother you now...
all these juz stay as a fairytale of my reality... nothing came for real... maybe its all an act frm the very start, i guess... it turn out to b a nightmare n a bad dream!
i learned tonnes of stuff frm diz nightmare... 1stly on the top:
all gud things does cum to an end!!
2ndly:
i cn nvr get gudness out of two world!!
3rdly:
nvr to fly too high wen ther's no1 ACTUALI ther to catch mi
4thly:
high hopes cn jus fall flat!!
Lastly:
SORRY jus seems to b an easy way fer SUM!!
walking our diff paths now:JUU
9:17 PM
hmm. currently im at Zhenghua CC. with irrahh n mii kuz:kak syidah. hehe. now on the clock @ 5.26pm n im at zhenghua cc instead of at werk. for your concern... mii,irrahh n azie cabot werk...hehe. we were late, so we decide to cabot...hehe we went to VivoCity to haf our breakfast, as irrahh crave for mee basok... n azie crave for mee soto. haha. so i juz tag along. we tour around the VivoCity. we went to Daiso... as azie wanted to buy some stuff for her friend... hehe. i pamper myself wif a Mocha Frapp. hehe. at last being able to pamper myself with a luxury drink...hehe... love mocha frapp. so much... after had a wonderful-cum-tired tour at VivoCity, we headed to BukitPanjangPlaza. went to Watson to 'visit' mii girl-fren:Syikeen... hehe. miss her so much sia. havent met her since 27th nov... hehe. azie n irah bought some food, as they were still hungry... then we headed home before we came here... azie didnt tag along as she has another appointment with her friend. haizz... im damn full now... thanks for the heavy breakfast n the mocha frapp. i had...
well, i kinda felt regret not goin to werk... as my $45 goes down to drain... bt looking at the brighter side of life... i had a quality-pamper-time for myself n my galfrens...hehe.
love de dae:JUU
5:25 PM
Thursday, December 18, 2008
i dun know what came over me? i miss my boy-friend sooo muchh... his name isMd.Zainuddin... hehe although i juz met him juz now at his werkplace... i'm missing him already. i guess it started since i werk... and azie kip talking about the memories in our sec school. haizz... miss him so much...
dun tink otherwise... i only regard him as myBig brother... technically, he is older than me by 3mth10daes. hehe.
among us... he is someone who you can come running to... he can be your shoulder to cry on... even though he may be very blur some times. he can be your listening ear... even though he may gif some comments that you dun want to hear... he can be your problem&trouble rubbish bin... talking to him can help you release your problem... you can talk to him non-stop, with all the different topics being compressed together. he is a natural-born-joker... hehe.
i miss the times... i get t o spend with him... those times... preparing for our O level...
he is sure like a big brother... he is the most discipline one among all... he is a leader... he would always remind us to study, instead of joking around. hehe.
i'm missing him so much... how i wish i could fly to him, this seconds. wanting to hug him- a brother&sister hug... can mehh??
to mii darling boy-friend...Zai, hope you success in your life n the upcoming O level results... by the way, once you get your pay... we go on date... kay??? * brother & sister * DATE. hehe. others are invited... azie... i won't forget.. because... we share Zai... Mii n Azie has regarded Zai as our brother... hehe... love him sooo much:)) maybe tomorrow, goin to visit him again at his werk place.... hehe...
sayonara...
missing her darling boy-friend:JUU
10:47 PM
haizz... felt lyke ages for this lappy to get connected to a wireless... haizz... todae... at werk, we ended late* kena OverTime:((* my boss, Mr Tomioka... seems unhappie with the attendance of the temporary staff... only 8 of us were present... mii, azie, marly,irah,lim hui fang, hui fang... and the other 2 gals... i'm nt sure of thier names... not many were present. we had to do over time, as we were behind time for the shop opening. damn tired sia... im very sleepy for the while day... maybe because i slept late yesterday... all because of mii bro...Ezam n his bestie Hafiz... woke me up, asking me to sleep in the room as i accidentally, slept at the sofa. hehe. Laugh n chat with them till 2.30Am... while i nid to wake up at 6.45am... aww, damn it sia. didn't get a good rest. got to know that Hafiz is the same age as me... bt still nid to call him 'abang' a.k.a bigg brother... as his b'dae is 1st sept... which is 10 days Older than Mii:)) Hafiz... he bully mii alot... kip slapping my forehead and pinching my arm... pain la, selenge... hehe.
aniwae... after werk, we headed to the yishun's pasar malam... buy food. hungry la sehh. even the auntie at the stall, recognise us already. haha. paiseh sia. :O after buying our food, we headed back to our home town.. bukit panjang. we alight at Bangkit... went to my mum's fren place.. to take some stuff... we were excited... we went to Bangkit Shop N Save... went to see Zai...mii boy-friend... it was his 1st day werk, todae... wanted to encourage him... bt instead, we went there and dizturd him. he complain about his backache from carrying the goods.. aww... kecian Zai... hehe
hmm... im gettin tired now... haizz... goin off to bed i guess...
tired n love myself:JUU
10:25 PM
Wednesday, December 17, 2008
h0w i wish i could be the Little Miss Sunshine in your life... to melt away the coldness that you had... having the power, to melt away the coldness... so that you won't be cold to me and people around you... that is my wish for you... for you to have your Little Miss Sunshine, to melt away the coldness in you:)) Little Miss Sunshine: JUU
9:41 PM
i'm back from werk... tiring day. todae kena do OT *overtime*, sianX:(( because of werk, i miss watching the Taiwanese drama... only manage to catch the last 5 min of the drama... which is the snippet for tomorrow episode. haizz.. everydae, after werk... i felt as though, i had not enough time for myself... usually, reach home at 7.30pm... 7.30-8pm: taiwanese drama... 8pm-9pm: dinner plus shower plus rest... 9pm-10pm: chinese drama... 10pm: korean drama plus fall asleep...
haizz... too little time to spend... haizz... each time, at 10pm... my eyes will b sleepy... n feel as though the bed is calling me... haizz... damn tired. since werking, how i appreciated my bed...the cozy-ness... i oso appreciate the time i have... because, the next day at 6.45am, nid to wake up for work. get my self ready, meeting up wif my babes at 7.40am at LRT... the whole journey to work, is about 1hr30min... damn it! since werking, i felt that Sembawang is very far from Bukit Panjang...even though our country is very small... haha. i guess the journey to werk tires me, rather than the werk itself...
talking about werk... suddenly, i felt so lazy to werk tomorrow... it could be because, i get to know that most of my collegues are not coming... Liayanah & Farahnina... taking their N-Level results tomorrow... haizz... i hope for the very best for them... Atikah... has to settle some admin stuff at her school. Aida & Afifah... too tired to come... Mark & Rini... officially off tomorrow... Emilia... self-declared off dae... haha. i guess, the number of staff will be limited... haizz... g'na get scolding for sure... haha... very well, just wish the very best for mii n my babes...
tired n sleepy already:JUU
9:02 PM
Monday, December 15, 2008
i just don't understand. felt distance away from you. you're like becoming someone whom i seriously don't know. you're not the same person, whom i known before. where has the 'old you' gone to? i'm suffering with the 'current you'. how i wish the new you would disappear and the 'old you' would reappear in my life. it is because, i miss the 'old you'. i really need the 'old you' back. the 'old you' is like my walking stick in through my life... i'm missing it, terribly. the 'new you', i really hate it so much. the new you keep making my life hard... i truly need the 'old you'. i really hope, the 'new you' would vanish in the thin air... need the 'old you' badly... miss the 'old you'... oh God... please bring back the 'old you', my friend... because i'm sufferig with the 'new you', my friend...
searching for the 'old you':JUU
12:10 AM
Sunday, December 14, 2008
Random... how would you feel, when the boy that you love whole heartedly, told you that " actually, i had never felt love since i had broken up with my previous girlfriend" how would you feel? the worst thing is that, for the few weeks back... he got text you about, "i'm sorry if i gave you hope. but in my heart i do love you." which should you believe? would you feel damn crushed? would you feel being mocked at? would you feel treated like a doll? i guess, the quote about "The cruelest thing a guy can do to a girl,is to let her fall in love when he doesn't intend to catch her fall." is true! why make the girl fall at the very first place, when you don't have the intention to catch her. it will only hurt her more. Giving the girl the wrong impression equals to hurt... Giving the girl hopes equals to hurt... Giving the girl empty promises equals to hurt... i guess in here, the girl has more hurt effect rather than the guy. how can a guy just say 'helovesyou' one day, and then' since when did i say iloveyou' it truly hurt the girl. eventhough if she didn't express it in her facial expression. it really pity her. To guys out there, please spare them...think about the hurt and heart ache the girl would feel when she was treated like that. To guys out there, never say 'iloveyou' to a girl if you don't mean it... you may not know if the girl really takes your words for real. it will only destruct the girl, it will not cause the guy any emotional effect. Guys will only understand the girl's hurt, if only they were granted the same level of emotion in their life. That is why Mens are from Mars while Womens are from Venus... they have different character and different needs. After hurting her, no words can heal the wound she suffered. she may say that she had forgiven you, but deep in her heart... she is still aching. i can feel how the girl would feel, when she was told like that. it is because, i had gone through it before. it hurts so badly. when you had blindly thought helovesyou, when the truth is that he doesn't. it crushes the girl's heart into tiny pieces. a word of 'sorry' can't redeem her hurt that you had caused to her. i was slapped with the "actually i had never felt loved since i broke up with my previous girlfriend" it shot right through. i was crushed just like that. i had let myself be blinded by your sweet-talks... it was too late, i had been crushed tremendously. after being blinded love of you and up high in the sky of love, you just came and throw me down fall right through the ground with your 'beautiful statement' our memories keep playback in my mind... it hurts horribly... how i wished, you were in my shoe...able to feel my hurt and aches... seriously, if you never felt loved... don't say the loveyou... cause it means a thousand different meaning to different individual. i had been hurt by the guy whom i love whole heartedly, therefore i hope the other guys other there do spare the ladies that you know... pity them. your 'beautiful statement' still playback in my mind... after being slapped by your 'beautiful statement' lot'sa stuff keep flodding in my mind... - did you really felt unloved? - who am i to you? - why did you do this to me? - i'm just a doll to you? - did you know i felt hurt?
silenttearsandhurt:JUU
8:57 PM
hmm.. finally had some time wif myself... juz had freshen up myself... back from werk... damnt tiring sia:(( my body is aching all over... i had gone down with fever n flu :(( btw juz nw, during lunch time... i was soaked wif rain, mii n irrahh didnt bring along our umbrella... haha. too bad... we had our lunch n being soaked in de rain... no wonder la, kena fever...
mii n irrah, felt as though we had NO LIFE sia... being locked-up in the store for 9hrs... when at home, we're tired to even haf some quality time spend to ourself... sob.sob. there goes my quality time:( i used to tink dt bukit panjang --> sembawang is very near, bt since i had start werking... i felt dt, it was damn far... had to wake up early to go to werk... n to wait a long time before reachin home haizz... poor life ar...
nvm i had to preservere... these are challenges in life... i g'na b fine:)) i guess so... hehe.. haizz... tmr another routine of my werkin life... haiizz... i wonder which dae shud i take leave, coz my body is damn aching... i kip taking panadol after dinner, so that i cn slp early... but the bad thing is dt, i intend to wake up late the nex dae. haizz... poor mii...
wonder wad mii smelly buffalo doing?? haiizz...
unwell n ached:JUU
8:03 PM
Wednesday, December 10, 2008
1:19 AM
to mii smelly buffalo:
never sayi love you if you really don't care
never talk about feelings when they aren't really there
never hold my hand if you are going to break my heart
never say you're going to if you don't really plan to start
never look at me in the eyes if all you do is lie
never say hello if what you really meant is goodbye
if you really mean forever then say you will try
never say forever cause forever make me cry
12:10 AM
Tuesday, December 9, 2008
hmm... buffalo im frustated! Shud i get this kind of treatment from you? You just get on my nerve today. Thought that todae, i might have a sweet treatment from you. Coz i know, after i start my werk tmr, i wont b spending much time with you... why cant you just understand me? issit so hard for you to be treating me well? after not being able to meet you for the past few days... thought you might spend some quite time with me... bt u irritates me... to you it maybe a way to get my attention... i tried to compromise bt it juz got too much of it... i tried to ignore n juz talk to you, but you kip testing me. all i wanted was just, to be by your side... recollecting the times we lost for the past few days.. before i were to get bz wif my werk... issit so hard?? all i wanted was a peaceful n quality time with you, bt wad i got in return was a misunderstanding with you...im hurt deeply! these tears just dont seems to b stop flowing...
how i wish i was strong... lift my head up high, so that i wont cry when i face this. you kip saying of giving up... ouch n it hurts:( i tried to compromise to your liking n attitude... bt i dun noe...
all you would ever says or reminds me is that... you are leaving me... n giving me up... issit "the end" to our story?? shud it be ended lyke diz... do you really mean it? im left hanging again... i fall flat to the ground...after you let me up high to the sky... i was lyke a cinderella... after meetin you... became a princess... bt the magic was gone... n became back lyke a cinderella... worst thing is dt... i became an ugly duckling.... i got hit flat to the ground... i dun want to end dis story yet...
does my ample sorie will make you better? will my apologies heal your wounds? i noe shud juz compromise...
does not wanting to end our story...is only an hoping part of mine? will you stay, if i were want you to? will you never go away, if i beg you to? will you not leave me, if i plead you?
to mii beloved buffalo, sorie i hd cause any discomfort in you...im truly sorie... i juz hope, you wont cast me aside... i dun want to end the story... im sorry so much:( how i wish we nvr had dis arguement... i really miss you...mii smellybuffalo...how shud i do to make you understand?
hurt n hurt:JUU
10:17 PM
i jus got home from Sembawang... wif Irrahh,Zai,Fay,Harun&Ewan... they accompany mii n irrahh to our workplace... bt den to our shock... the whole shopping centre was under RENOVATION... den how to enter sehh, lyke dt? haha... feelin fcuk-up wif the werkplace, we went to SunPlaza.. had our dinner at KFC... felt so EwikKp, while eatin when the guys were talkin abt private part... gruelsome rite... hilang selera nk mkn... * cnt guys b more sensitive abt their discussion?* haizz... de worst thing is dat... it makes me n irrahh... cnt finish our food... we food wastage:( thnks to them... after dt, we went to arcade... i dun noe wad came across me... i told irrahh n zai dt, wen i had a BF, i would date him at arcade... we g'na haf our date at arcade... cute right... hehe:P dun why... Fay start his gettin-on-my-nerve-assignment! from the start of the trip, till we got back home... haizz...
Off to werk tmr:JUU
9:49 PM
BYEBYE... lyric
This is for my peoples Who just lost somebody Your best friend, your baby Your man or your lady Put your hand way up high We will never say bye No, no, no
Mamas, daddies, sisters, brothers Friends and cousins This is for my peoples Who lost their grandmothers Lift your head to the sky Cause we will never say bye
As a child there were them times I didn't get it But you kept me in line I didn't know why You didn't show up sometimes On Sunday mornings and I missed you But I'm glad we talked through
All them grown folk things Separation brings You never let me know it You never let it show Because you loved me and obviously There's so much more left to say If you were with me today Face to face
I never knew I could hurt like this And everyday life goes on I wish I could talk to you for a while Miss you but I try not to cry As time goes by
And it's true that you've Reached a better place Still I'd give the world to see your face And be right here next to you But it's like you're gone too soon Now the hardest thing to do is say
You never got a chance to see How good I've done And you never got to See me back at number one I wish that you were here To celebrate together I wish that we could Spend the holidays together
I remember when you used to Tuck me in at night With the teddy bear you gave me That I held so tight I thought you were so strong You'd make it through whatever It's so hard to accept the fact You're gone forever
I never knew I could hurt like this And everyday life goes on I wish I could talk to you for a while Miss you but I try not to cry As time goes by
And it's true that you've Reached a better place Still I'd give the world to see your face And be right here next to you But it's like you're gone too soon Now the hardest thing to do is say
This is for my peoples Who just lost somebody Your best friend, your baby Your man or your lady Put your hand way up high We will never say bye
Mamas, daddies, sisters, brothers Friends and cousins This is for my peoples Who lost their grandmothers Lift your head to the sky Cause we will never say bye, bye.
I never knew I could hurt like this And everyday life goes on I wish I could talk to you for a while Miss you but I try not to cry As time goes by
And it's true that you've Reached a better place Still I'd give the world to see your face And be right here next to you But it's like you're gone too soon Now the hardest thing to do is say
finally, im back in Spore...my hometown.hehe. being away for 3D2N in Malaysia.. o.o... i miss my hometown soo much... the weird feeling i felt so much... basically, i kena bite mosquito... damn it!! i kena diarrhea, i guess im nt used to the water supply there or wad la... such a bad experience there, bt some memories too... being able to come together as a family:P meeting all my kuzz.. who is now grown up... jokes around...hehe.
bt then, deep inside... i do miss my kuzz n family in Spore :) aww... most of all, i do miss mii smelly buffalo:)) wonder if he misses mi too, he better miss... haha hmm... hehe... i really misses him:O
aww... im startin werk soon:(( on 10dec...aiyohh... damn it:((
miss her smelly buffaLo:JUU
1:22 PM
Saturday, December 6, 2008
Judging from our current situation, we're drifting apart... tomorrow i'm off to JB for my uncle wedding. Need to help around with the preparation... once back from JB, i'm off to work... if i'm not wrong, i should be back here on the 9thDec... haizz, i guess i won't have much time left to spend with you - smellybuffalo... while working, i won't have time to meet you... i guess we will really drift apart...haizz
those words you said... i could still remember clearly... "It is all fated this way cause i'm not the right one for you. how long can we run this journey, it seems noever ending. we can't turn back either. we need to run to a new path where we can reach to our destiny" it hurt so much when i received that from you... readin it again and again... it still hurt...
juz now, u purposely let me listen to the songs that let you reminds of old stuff... im hurt... i dun mind, if you were to remember you past... but i cant cast the hurt i felt. listening to the songs, reminds me of HERS... each song being played was a memory of her... u still cnt get over her... it struck me deeply, dt im still the second fiddle and will always be... cnt outshine them...your thoughts still have them...
smellybuffalo, sorie i cried again... i know i had promised you dat i wont cry again... yet i cant control... the hurt i felt is to hard and terrible... sorie... bt thanks for making me cry...
i wonder... if we were to be apart... will i still be in your thoughts? will there be songs that you hear...that reminds of me? will you still care for me ? buffalo,buffalo... i know... u have a motive of letting me listen to the songs... about the future??
why do guys look at the appearance of a girl, before they even want to start their first conversation? isn't what inside that matters? what the use of having a pretty lady, when her attitude just scuk*? to some guys, talking about girl's features maybe an entertainment to them, but to the girl herself...it maybe an insult, who knows? can the guys actually think, what the girl is thinking or feeling when he joke around about her features? all they know is that, its an entertainment joke to them(guys). how would guys think, when girls are talking about their(guys) features in front of many girls? will they feel proud or inferior? its the same... how a guy will feel when his features were made as the main topic of the girls conversation.
no one choose to be fat or thin... no one choose to be tall or short... no one choose to be born healthy or sick... no one choose to be born normal or abnormal... we do not choose... yet we were gifted by HIM...
so... dun criticize people... by their appearance... he/she maybe fat, but deep inside she/he is a nice person? he/she maybe tall, but deep inside he/she has a lot of phobia? he/she maybe normal, but deep inside he/she is actually sick? therefore dun judge or stereotype people... everyone has their own good and bad points... To you maybe he/she is not your PrinceCharming/Beauty but he/she maybe someone's PrinceChaming/Beauty... everyone has their own flaws and strength...
hope people understand:JUU
2:12 AM
Friday, December 5, 2008
"Just because you know someone doesn't mean you love them, and just because you don't know people doesn't mean you can't love them. You can fall in love with a complete stranger in a heartbeat, if God planned that route for you. So open your heart to strangers more often. You never know when God will throw that pass at you."
"It doesn't take a reason to love someone, but it does to like someone. You don't love someone because you want to, you love someone because you are destined too. It's because you fall in Love with them, that you then try to find a reason, but you always come up with the answer, "No reason!"
"Never say goodbye when you still want to try. Never give up when you still feel you can take it. Never say you don't love a person when you can't let go."
"Girls are like telephones, they like to be held and talked too, but if you push the wrong buttons, you might get disconnected."
"Who do you turn to when the only person in the world that can stop you from crying, is exactly the one making you cry?"
5:34 PM
My Secret Angel I have an angel on my shoulders And he’s watching over me He give me comfort when a wake up Or when I fall to sleep.
My secret angel is always with me And I know that he’s around I can feel he tries to hold me When those days when I feel down.
My angel knows my troubles And will shield me with he’s wings He tells me not to worry For there’s better days I bring.
He has a sense of humor When those day when all goes right But I’m humble with my prayers In my darkest days and nights.
My angel is my messenger He feels and knows my needs He relays my life to heaven For my works and my good deeds
God gave to me an angel And he’s with me until my end He holds my secrets that I carry And I trust him as a friend.
*he is someone i have in mind:)
5:29 PM
me during de nite game activity...
during BBQ! min,din,me,joe mii:O Azie n Ivan : they nt couple la... jz clz fren... bt cute right??? haha me n gf AZIE :P
sorie for de late update pic of mii chalet... jz gt de pic frm mii fren
love de pic:))JUU
3:58 AM
Thursday, December 4, 2008
hmm... jz gt home frm bugis wif mi GF:Azie... we went to ToaPayoh... azie FINALLY made her POSB card... haha, cehh da big gal sehh... while at ToaPayoh, Azie bought a pair of sneakers n some clothes... hehe...shopping...
next, we went to BugisJunction... while walkin, we were approached by a lady... promoting somesort of a freelance modelling stuff...,ya right... haha... wateva la... went to BugisJunction... we start our shoppin... in total we bought 3 t-shirt n azie an extra sneakers... hehe... hungry hungry, we went to KFC to haf de CHRISTMAS BUDDYMEAL... azie was so fuck-up abt mii forcing her to eat... mcm phm...
while eatin...standard haf some chit-chat... lookin back into de past... haha...tonnes of jokes to b shared... n de funny thing is dat... each time in our conv. dere will alwaes ende up wif "FAY!!" haha... aww, azie miss Fay... so much... for his blurblur... i dun noe?haha...
then, otw home... joe text to meet up... so ask fay tag along... in case azie wanna meet up wif him... *lepaskn rindu katekn* joe,fay n mii... went to mii place... to borrow de lappy... chck joe's blog... haizz... he then went off for a jog..aisyehh...
kayla, enuf for todae... nid to meet wif joe now... gtg...myb if im nt lazy, i will update more... byebye:P
tired yet go out:JUU
9:05 PM
Monday, December 1, 2008
err... hmm... im still ponderin abt wad Azie said.. btw, jz nw went out wif Azie-Marly-Irrahh *gossip babes*
she said abt wad g'na happen aft our O lvl result... she had de feeling dt, we're g'na b apart n separated... i did agree sumhow... i oso has dis feelin too... bt mine abit diff. i did feel we're g'na b separated bt dere will b sum1 whu g'na stuck wif me... i wont get separated wif dt person... de prob is dt, i dun noe, whu is hym/her dt g'na stuck wif me... deeply inside, i hope de person dt g'na stick wif me is you! haizz... im kinda scared nw... i guess i nid to spend as much time as i cud wif all my BFnGF... hope dt we will get to kip in touch even when we are g'na b separated... miss mii BFnGF!!
kayla.. update again 8ter...nw nid to meet mii sis to buy mii mum b'dae cake... its mii mum b'dae todae!! 1 dec!!! aisehh dh tua ya... aww.. love mii mummy SO MUCH!!!
JUU;P
6:41 PM
beliefs
Eventually, everything
will fall into place.
hello
Julaiha Rosli
Since '91
Don't come and tell me
that you know me well enough,
when i'm still getting to know
my own self.
L-R: me,irrahh,mal&nana
mii,irrahh,nana,azie&mal
L-R:mad,ron,azri,nas,ba,mi,wa&man
Little Miss Sunshine: JUU
me during de nite game activity...
during BBQ!
mii:O
Azie n Ivan : they nt couple la... jz clz fren... bt cute right??? haha
me n gf AZIE :P