Sunday, May 30, 2010
it's kinda a late update of photos, but it's worth to blog :)
Shelley, Jessica & I went out for our Starbucks at Marina Square :)
Sadly, Limin & Melody could not make it.
It's okay, we had our fun and as usual - bitchy stuff. hehe.
i really miss having Jessica, Melody and Shelley around me in class .
i miss Melody asking me " where are we eating later" - when class just started. haha.
i miss texting Jessica once i reach Choa Chu Kang Mrt .
i miss disturbing Shelley with Avi .
Ultimately, i miss having shared conversation with Limin, Jessica, Melody & Shelley
in class even though we sit super near each other.
heheh
i'm so excited for TEP stopover to be over and i'm so excited to be in Sem 2 because,
i can hear Melody asking me " where are we eating later "
i can text Jessica once i reach Choa Chu Kang Mrt
i can disturb Shelley :)))
Most of all, we can have our Shared Conversation on MSN :)))
love my dearest ladies !
9:48 AM
Wednesday, May 19, 2010
deep within me, i feel insecure :( poly-life is seriously taking over me. i seems to live a fake life and i feel like im pretending to be someone that im really not. im glad that i have thoughtful classmates but i just do not feel that i fit in the crowd.
everyone in the class seems to be link with just 1 common thing - play sports .
i agree, i do not play sport - but that does not stop me from taking Sports & Wellness Management right ? i do not play sports - does not means that i dislike sports . i like sports but i do not want to play sport competitively - i'd rather play if during my leisure period.
*** im drowned in the silence rain just now ***
i felt so not in place, i really misses my secondary school environment .
in my class; some do play sports and some does not.
however, when it comes to class sports activity - we participate actively .
in my class; i do not have friends that keep complaining how fat they are - when they are skinny .
the complain " i'm so fat " has never existed in my class .
in my class; there is no clear division of cliques
everyone are just united as a class :)
i'm not trying to show that how bad my new classmate are ... they are awesome people however, things are just not doing great for me .
someone tell me;
" like seriously, do you even play sports ?"
" you don't even look like someone that play sports?"
" you're so fat "
" take up sports lah, you lazy "
- it's not that i'm lazy or what, it's just that poly sports team is not open for
training purpose, they are only open for competitive squad.
- yea, i do not play sports but that does not mean that i hate sports .
- who say every skinny people play sports ?
- how should someone who play sports look like anyway ?
i'm serious trying my very best to fit in, however, i feel weird. i like sports but maybe for competitive level- i'm not there .
please, don't judge me just by first impression and my cliques. my cliques; have been playing sports since like Forever while i'm like Rarely . Don't say i never try, because you are the one walking in my shoe and you don't know what i fee .
- only God know how i truly feels -
** how i wish i could just ignore these stuff and live life as per normal .
i miss being that sunshine in me . ***
i'm not a sport person but that doesn't mean that i'm not sporty and outgoing . i like sports as a leisure activity but not on competition level.
seriously, i do not know and i'm very upset about this .
* i cried as i type this blog *
11:06 PM
Thursday, May 13, 2010
12th may. 7.05pm :)
i love.
it's been awhile since we talked and i hear your voice :))
we're far in distance, yet you took the effort to make
me feel closer to you in my heart :))
what makes me love you the most,
" i don't have a babe. i have you ...
i spend my money calling you . i spend my time calling you . "
aww ~
how i feel so high and i blushed like no one business.
mummy was looking at me and she grins.
hehe.
boy, how i wish we were closer and distance is not the issue for us :)
i love
11:52 AM
Friday, May 7, 2010
alright i don't want to be label as someone ungrateful,
therefore i hereby thanks my gf,Azie for giving me opportunity :)
i get to take picture with my hot stuff; Awal Ashaari :)
he's so cute kann !
yeahh. not forgetting to wish my ultimate addiction;
Cesc Fabregas birthday on 4th may !
ahahahha. he's cute too !
11:49 AM
Saturday, May 1, 2010
i feel just like a fish out of the water . i don't feel that i can fit in the crowd .everything seems so clear right now . it's kinda too late to regret and i'm not feeling any better .everyday is a dread for me,however right here deep within me ... i'm just trying my very best .i pray for miracle to happen
12:39 AM
