Tuesday, March 31, 2009
i'm totally unwell. yes, i know i was supposed to be at my workplace today, or even at this seconds. unfortunately, im down with rashes.
it's a total horrible experience. yesterday night, i couldn't get a blink of sleep.
i was busy scratching myself.
reds all over.
around 5am, i couldn't take it anymore.
i told my granny about it.
she told me to apply some medicated oil, which i did.
then, when my mummy was up, these tears just flow non-stop.
me: mama, adk dh tkle tahan. sakit...
mummy: nnt g doctor la... dh terok sgt nie.
daddy: nnt abah teman adk g clinic.
mummy went to wake up my dad. then, my dad ask me to rest awhile...
waiting for 8.30am, where our family clinic has open for its business.
after my bath, i thought the rashes would cools down, but it worsen.
when seeing the doctor, he just says it was normal because i was currently under another antibiotic medication.
Dr Yap: Ai'yah, nothing la... you got eat anything that you never eat before?
Me: huh?
Dr Yap: Any chillies? Seafood? Tidbits?
Me: hmm, sort of lar...
Dr Yap: No wonder la, nevermind it's ok.
for this 5 days, don't take any chillies, seafood, canned drinks & tidbits.
2 days MC ok?
Me: okie:))
hehe. so people, im officially under MC for 2 days. hehe. so that means, i will missed my relief work at SuntecCity. haizz. hehe.
after i got home, i ate my medication. i had to call my workplace, to inform them about my MC.
within seconds after that, i was asleep. i really had a sound sleep finally.
i really hope, i will get well soon from this rashes thingy. i just hate this situation.
hope to recover:Juu
5:11 PM
Monday, March 30, 2009
fuhh. i'm over de moon rite now:))
well, just now went out wif my dudettes, it's been days...or even months since i spend time wif them... seriously speaking, just now i do felt left out though, i guess it's b'coz, i dun really have much to talk about with them...so mainly, i just keep myself shut, until dere is jokes or "stories", that i'm familiar about...
it's ladies outing todae, firstly... i accompany wani&zara to Bugis,wani had to pass somethingto her poly mate...
then, we went for lunch together.
we walk-walk, at BugisJunction, as Zara wants to buy some accessories...
then, Zara had to go...meet her poly mates at Suntec...
me&wani, went to BukitPanjangPlaza for some chitchat session with Ba.
it's been sometime, since i had meet her.
had some laughter to old jokes...
In the bus, our conversation:
Ba: Ju stop ehh muke...( i was looking at wani very wild)
Ju: Tak, dah lame tk jumpe wani... aku lost de touch of wani nye reaction.
it's b'coz aku dah lame tk kluar dgn korg ke? mmg wani mcm gini?
it's all b'coz, wani kip making funny faces & talking non-stop. haha.
but with her, it's all worth the outing... full of laughter...
haizz, right now.... i totally have no mood to go to work tmr.
shit lar. malas nye!!!
how i wish that 15th april, is actually tomorrow!!!
damn it! currently, it's not even 1st APRIL yet!!!
arghh!!!
to wani: insya allah, i will buy for you that shoe, which you saw at Charles&Keith... ok?
anyting i will text you, by monday...hehe.
that's your b'day gift from me:))
tp klu tkd, mmg bukan rezeki kau la ehh... sowie...
kay la, im off to bed now!
byebye, take care,my friend:))
love my dudettes:Juu
11:09 PM
Saturday, March 28, 2009
hmm, yesterday my friend, ___ told me about his problem. initially, i nudge him on MSN but he didn't reply. i thought we had a fight or what, because its been some time since we actually contact. but then, he texted me, saying he's busy watching some movie online... so we're ok, i guess.
The shocking news is that, he told me, his mum is currently being hospilitalised. he's kinda in stress now. haizz, i want to console him, but the words of encouragement...just can't seem to come out easily. i know, he's kinda busy with thru&fro home-hospital, so dat's why i didn't want to disturb him. so here, i just want to let him know that, he can always text me at my mobile... whenever he needs someone to talk to...
well, just now just chatted with him. i told him about my wish to resign this 15th april, he didn't approve it initially as he hasn't fulfill his promise; picking me up after work. i told him that, i'm working tmr, so if he's not busy or what, he can pick me up... but im seriously not forcing, i just don't want to add burden to his current problem workload.
i can't possibly be selfish in forcing him to pick me up after work? i have always been going home alone, and im totally fine with it... i just don't want to trouble him.
i don't want to exhaust him, as my work usually ends around 10pm... and he's already busy with his visit to his mum, therefore, i don't want to trouble him.
to tell the truth, a part of me, do hope he would fulfill his promise. but i don't want to trouble him and just because of my selfishness, i would make him exhausted. as a friend, i haveto understand his situation, his mum needs him more than i need him, in this time... his promise to me, i can always wait for the next time...
to ___ : if tomorrow you can't pick me up, i totally understand. just text me earlier in the day, so that i won't be waiting or hopeful too. maybe, one of my off days, i would like to accompany you to visit your mum. i know, i can't be there to encourage you, but you can always text me, when you really need someone to talk to. insya allah, ju akan usahakan:))
you have got to be strong! your mum needs you by her side as her pilla of strength to live on...
i'm okay, just hope for you to be strong:JUU
10:31 PM
Friday, March 27, 2009
my mummy show me a short story of a lovely and touching love story. here read it... and you, yourself justify whether it is loveloy or just plain lame...
It was a busy morning about 8.30 when an elderly gentlemen in his 80's arrived to have his stitches removed from his thumb. He said he was in a hurry as he had an appointment at 9.00a.m.
i took his vital signs and asked him to take a seat, knowing it would be an hour before someone would be able to see him. i saw him looking at his watch,and decided that since i was not busy with another patient, i would evaluate or check his wound.
on examining it, i found it well healed. one of the docters got the needed supplies to remove his sutures and redress his wound. while taking care of his wound, i asked him if he had another docters's appoiintment this morning as he was such in a hurry.
The gentlemen told me he did not have any other doctor's appointment. he told me he needed to go to the nursing home to have breakfast with his wife. when i asked her health, he told me that she had been there for a while. she was a victim of Alzheimer's disease.
As we talked, i asked if she would be upset if he was a bit late. He replied that she no longer knew who he was. she had not recognised him for five years now.
I was very surprised so i asked, "And you still visit her every morning even though she no longer remember who you are."
He smiled as he patted my hand and said, " She doesn't know me, but i still know who is she."
personally, to me, this story is very touching. it's like even though the wife doesn't remembers him, he is very sincere to visit her every morning. a true sweet and charming man.
i guess, this is what loves means truly...
high up high:JUU
8:43 PM
hmm. well got some news from my babe, about my bestie. haizz, im very worried for ____ right now.
i know, i cannot force ____ to do anyting that is against his/her willingness.
sometimes, things get complicated when, you want to say out your thoughts but you are afraid that you might hurt the other party.
therefore, in order not to hurt their feelings, we choose to keep our mouth shut and just see as time passes.
unfortunately, when the time came, he/she will blame you for not giving advise in advance.
it's like a no wins situation.
1..giving advise now, and he/she will get hurt
2.not giving advise, and he/she will get mad for not giving advise
which should i do then?
keeping quiet or just be the bad-guy now and believe the '" it's for his/her own good" sentence?
maybe to him/her, i may not be the right person to turn for advise. but at least, i did offer my personal opinion, for you to consider.
me, as your bestie, dont want to see you get hurt by some irresponsible person out there...
i love you, and i care for you. i just don't want you to get hurt, that's all! i've been through, what you're currently going through. maybe, from the experience, i don't want you to be drifted anymore farther... i want you to be in a stable situation and think carefully of your future. i don't want you to get distracted.
all i advise to you is to just, stay low and be wary of his/her actions. he/she maybe just taking advantage of your current situation, your vulnerability state to approach you. i don't want to see what had happen to me, to happen to you. not all people are very trustworthy... wolves in sheep's clothing...
everyones knows your weakness, to easily believe his/her words... all i want to say is that... you can believe his/her promises or words but not to the extent that you lost your own stand of belief.
don't want you to suffer later in the day.
i know, i can be naggy... but all i want is for you to be safe and not to be hurt by those irresponsible persons that you believe to be true. i'm trying to be a very good friend here, by giving you advise. i know i can't force you to listen and act to my advise...
i just hope in the day to come, you won't be coming to me in tears and says
" i should have listen to your advise" or " you should warn me earlier!"
i don't mind being the shoulder for you to cry on, but i'm not sure if i can be calm enough to console you, because, i have already advise you in the very first place. if not heeding my advise is what you choose, then you bear the consequences yourself.
i'm not running away from my responsibility as friend, i just want you to awake from
your-thought-to-be-a-beautiful-dream-that-turn-out-to-be-a-nightmare!
i'm sorry if my word are harsh but if this can get you to heed my advise, im ok to be the badguy here!
hoping for the best for you:JUU
4:37 PM
Monday, March 23, 2009
hmm... just now my lil sis asked me,
"kak, what's your goal in life?"
initially, i was stunned by her question.
to me, it came kinda in the shock!
it's like a bombshell.
at first, i didn't noe how to answer her.
but then, after had some personal talks in my head...
i finally answered her...
" my goal in life, is to study hard so that keluarga kita dapat kehidupan kite yg lame!"
she didn't understand at first, untill i explain to her...
my explaination...
my family(THEN)
we used to live at Fajar, the house were pretty much bigger.
We used not to have to think twice, whenever we wants to buy toys&other luxury items. Financial problem we faced, is a minor ones.
We had our own transport to travel on.
We could afford our own luxury items, such as; computers, handphone, dvd player, starhub cable&etc.
We never argue about our financial.
my family(NOW)
lived at Jelapang, the house is rather small.
We had to think twice, when it comes to buying things even for the daily use.
Sometimes, we even had small arguement about the financial.
In affording the luxury items, we as kids, had to work really hard, just to gain the luxury items. like passing our major examination before getting handphone.
Being very well in our study just to obtain the 'gift'.
it's like redeem a gift, after working hard.
it does teaches us to work hard, to obtain something.
The only transport that we had now is ' public transport'...
it does not pollutes the earth & it also contribute to the govt. income.
to tell the truth, sometimes i gets fed-up whenever i look at my family condition.
but also because of this situation, that makes me want to change it thoroughly, even i noe its impossible. but i will try.
my family situation, trigger me to study hard so that i can change it all.
since our life is like a wheel...it rotates, it means you will never always be 'on top' of the wheel, you may aslo be at 'the bottom'.
i agree with that sayings, because it does happen to my family.
we used to be on top, but then we're now at the bottom...
now, looking at the brught side of life.
there is a part of me that believes, that my family is slowly recovering up to 'the top'...
firstly, i manage to pass my major examination.
my sis is rather attached with an admin. work, and hopefully gonna be long, i hope so.
my dad pampered me with the 'gifts' for doing well.
then, dad is gonna get his pay raised!
so, i guess... my family is going to recover & we may be leading a better life soon.
i pray so much for it to occur.
not because im sick of living like now.
it's because, i miss the way we used to live...
there is a saying which says " money doesn't bring happiness".
but let's get reality here. so does poverty!
till here folks, im kinda sleepy now:)
hopes for a better future:JUU
11:03 PM
to Md Ridzwan.
thnks ehh sebab blanje titi dgn kakak breakfast tadi!
trime kaseh!
btw Wan, dah lame tk dgr citer pasal Wan.
tibe2 menghilang... for more than 3 years, then skg dtg kembali...
haha, dapat kte bertemu slalu la gini!
best nye, dapat jumpe kembali kawan lama.
the feeling is so undescribable.
it's been some time since we used to talk on phone, conference berTiga.
hehe.
rajin-rajin, Wan blanje la titi lagi. hehe.
kay la, pape nnt titi text Wan lagi. Jangan lost contact lagi!
hapie giler:JUU
1:57 PM
Friday, March 20, 2009
my
sister
PROMISE
to
give
me
$100
during
her
pay
day!!!!
aku
tuntut!!!!
10:35 PM
hmm. im damn TIRED lar syehh...
currently, im at civic centre's mac'd.
im wif my sis, just now she brought along my lappy to her workplace...
so she suggest to pick me up at my workplace now.
so im busy updating here, while she is consoling her bestie whu is kinda feeling down...
aww...
im oso feeling down lar syehh...
the situation is dat, today my sales target is $1,500
but then... i only manage to obtain $1,499.60
damn sia!
a different of a pathetic $0.40!!!
shit lar syehh...
arghh. im so fed up lar syehh! my leg is aching so much.
luckily... my manager didn't say anyting about me not meeting my $0.40 target!
b'coz, all the other staff oso didn't get any nearer to their sales target.
so im being spared of being scolded. hehe
but im happy... tomorrow is my OFF DAY!!! hehe.
so, mummy want bring me to JB... hehe...
shopping maybe...
kay then folks... dat's all the hot news i had for today:))
stay tune for more ya?
looking forward for tomorrow:JUU
10:12 PM
Tuesday, March 17, 2009
hmm. its my 1st day of work after a long break(5 off days)...
it sucks, at the starting of the day.
i came late for work.
correction!
i didn't know what time did the shop open, at the very first place.
usually, most charles&keith shop outles opens at 11am,
but the one at Clifford Centre opens at 10am.
so, im LATE! i came reached at 10.45am.
and the new manager, gave me the weird stare!
at least...i got come what! relax arh!
haizz, what a day to start off with???
well, the staff is also SO NOT FRIENDLY!
never talk to me sia... arghh, i totally got no mood want to work sia!
but then, after i try making some talks...
they turn out to be ALRIGHT!
the positive thing of my day is that...
my shif is only 10AM-5PM, baek pe?
seriously speaking, its like my 1st time...
going home, walking by the long canal...
i can see the bright light of the canal...
not which i used to go home...
all dark, only being accompanied by the lamp post's shine!
im so grateful, that i have such a short working time today...
hehe...
if only, im able to have this kind of timing alwaes, would be the best! haha.
ok folks!, that's all for today!
im kinda sleepy today!
need to wake up early lar tmr...
need to reach work at 10 am or 11 am... so need to go out earlier!
haizz...
more updates tomorrow:))
huggs&kissess:JUU
11:18 PM
Monday, March 16, 2009
hmm, what is friendship anyway?
here, put it in a simple scenario.
these 4 people are very good friends, eversince they started their secondary sch.
always being together.
sharing all the ups&downs together.
going through all the thicks&thins together.
they are always together.
tonnes of memories of them together.
even if there is some 'sour', it won't last long.
they will soon, be good again.
but then, upon graduation...
1 of them, didnt do well.
the other 3 are moving on with their own path...
leaving only the loney person.
he/she, thought that his/her friend will always be by his/her side
but to horror, they did not!
the other 3, still kept in touch...
but no longer as 4 but only 3...
casting that 1 aside by him/herself.
he/she thought that, they will be by his/her side.
but NONE! not even a single one did.
he/she think back upon the meaning of true friendship...
is this true fren?
is this brother/sister ship?
is this buddy for life?
the saddest thing is that,
they used to promised with each other...
not to lose contact upon graduation...
but, what happen???
where has the promise gone to?
why make empty promises?
not even one is able to fulfill the promise!
such a sad thing!
is this a true friend???
to me, personally...
i doubt so....
reflecting too:JUU
11:56 PM
warning: the post below is gonna be very sucky & boring.
don't blame me if you dun understand or u find it bored.
i had advised you in the earlier stage.
if u dun like it, scrap off!
hmm. why guys just don't understand?
why make such a tricky situation out of somthing very simple.
can't stick to a simple equation.
if you dun have the intention to love,
well, might as well, dun make us fall.
its very hurtful, you know.
since, once bitten twice shy...
we are more likely to be very wary about our feelings.
when you appear to be the one that is a kind soul, a right one.
in a split seconds, you blurt out that similar words.
you wanted to keep 'low profile'.
being an unofficial gal, is what gals always hates.
since the guys knows, but why did they still suggesting that way still?
are they just plain stupid or fool?
unable to read our feelings or just plain ego?
it hurts when, the guy says, all i want is for us to be low profile!
it hurts deeply.
after thought that, he would be the one, he, himself suggested the wrong thing!
it hurts damn alot!
why is all the nice guys are all dead or married???
ain't there any nice guy out there??
why bother to be make us fall, when all you want is to be low profile.
it's better for you to just stay by yourself, than to still making us fall for you.
dun be such a cruel creature! t
reasure us, as a gal. dun be a bad person.
if you truly love her, why you want to keep it a secret?
you should be proud of her, showcase her as your official gal.
not keeoping her in the wardrobe, after getting her love!
be someone responsible.
not someone not responsible!
after making her fall, but not catching her!
damn it!
7:55 PM
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me, aisyah& kakak bought this!
masjid crystal
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family pic!
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nice view, very greenery:))
hmm, back to the familiar environment...
yes! people, im back to Singapore :))
well, had a stint holiday to Malaysia;Terengganu!
it's been 14years ago, since i had step my foot there.
i used to went there, when i was only a toddle...
doesn't have any memories install, when i was a kid.
now! i had it install! yeah! its a very beautiful view of terengganu:)
basically, we took a coach ride from Johore to Terengganu.
it's 9 hour journey! fuhh! mendak giler dlm bas!
our bus was supposed to leave at 9.30pm! but then, to the heavy traffic...
the bus leave at 10.30! damn it!
had to wait for the bus, like a what??
to cut the story short! its a mix of bitter sweet memory.
the bitter part, is only the journey!
but, the sweetest part is when we arrive there! hehe.
After the wedding ended, Pak Lang,
offered to bring us out to round-round the place...
hmm, its was full of laughter while in the car!
all the teasing and non-stop laughing! haha.
initially, Abang Ngah, whom we thought to be a very shy2&quite.
turn out to be kaki gerek jugak baik ar!
Pak Lang&Abang Ngah bring us to several places.
went to a mall, a usual, mum had her time for SHOPPING!
then,went to this famous-must-go-gerai.
they sell a very popular snack; keropok lekor!
damn nice lor!
it has a small warong, where we can have a taste of it!
personally, to me,
its the nicest keropok lekor i ever tasted!
hmm... nice lar sehh...
then, we went to this famous mosque! masjid crystal. had some photo taking... hehe...
i want so much to go to Tasik Kenyir! its a place must-go!
its like Singapore's Sentosa. a tourist must go place!
hmm... but then, since we're only there for a day... we cannot visit Tasik Kenyir.
its very far.
but then, Uncle Zali, had promise me to bring me to Tasik Kenyir,
if we were to go there again.
arggh, can't wait! hehe.
upon boarding the bus home... im on the edge of tears
i really misses Terengganu!
aww... there is so many memories there.
i feel so ease and peace, when i was there! arghh, i wanna go back there!
im really looking forward to a december vacation at Terengganu!!
missing my terengganu vacation:JUU
1:46 PM
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me, aisyah& kakak bought this!.jpg)
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nice view, very greenery:))