Monday, March 23, 2009
hmm... just now my lil sis asked me,
"kak, what's your goal in life?"
initially, i was stunned by her question.
to me, it came kinda in the shock!
it's like a bombshell.
at first, i didn't noe how to answer her.
but then, after had some personal talks in my head...
i finally answered her...
" my goal in life, is to study hard so that keluarga kita dapat kehidupan kite yg lame!"
she didn't understand at first, untill i explain to her...
my explaination...
my family(THEN)
we used to live at Fajar, the house were pretty much bigger.
We used not to have to think twice, whenever we wants to buy toys&other luxury items. Financial problem we faced, is a minor ones.
We had our own transport to travel on.
We could afford our own luxury items, such as; computers, handphone, dvd player, starhub cable&etc.
We never argue about our financial.
my family(NOW)
lived at Jelapang, the house is rather small.
We had to think twice, when it comes to buying things even for the daily use.
Sometimes, we even had small arguement about the financial.
In affording the luxury items, we as kids, had to work really hard, just to gain the luxury items. like passing our major examination before getting handphone.
Being very well in our study just to obtain the 'gift'.
it's like redeem a gift, after working hard.
it does teaches us to work hard, to obtain something.
The only transport that we had now is ' public transport'...
it does not pollutes the earth & it also contribute to the govt. income.
to tell the truth, sometimes i gets fed-up whenever i look at my family condition.
but also because of this situation, that makes me want to change it thoroughly, even i noe its impossible. but i will try.
my family situation, trigger me to study hard so that i can change it all.
since our life is like a wheel...it rotates, it means you will never always be 'on top' of the wheel, you may aslo be at 'the bottom'.
i agree with that sayings, because it does happen to my family.
we used to be on top, but then we're now at the bottom...
now, looking at the brught side of life.
there is a part of me that believes, that my family is slowly recovering up to 'the top'...
firstly, i manage to pass my major examination.
my sis is rather attached with an admin. work, and hopefully gonna be long, i hope so.
my dad pampered me with the 'gifts' for doing well.
then, dad is gonna get his pay raised!
so, i guess... my family is going to recover & we may be leading a better life soon.
i pray so much for it to occur.
not because im sick of living like now.
it's because, i miss the way we used to live...
there is a saying which says " money doesn't bring happiness".
but let's get reality here. so does poverty!
till here folks, im kinda sleepy now:)
hopes for a better future:JUU
11:03 PM
