Photographing the past

Wednesday, April 29, 2009

Sometime, your day does not goes with the way you wanted .
But all you could do is, to just go with the flow ...

OVERSLEPT! Is sure is not the right factor for you to start your day with ... hmm, i overslept, but it was lucky of me to still manage to get myself in school in time . that's a close shave .

Well, it got *BETTER* when we had our Statistic Theory For Business module with Mr C.K
It was so [insert negative verb]! i really can't take it! i'm so fed-up .
His lesson, is so FAST ! He keep talking and explaining ... which at the very first place, we already did not understand at all . but he just keep keep going on ...
even when we told him to slow down ... he keep talking .

urgh! recalling the incident, makes me even mad. urgh!

okie. end of the painful story i had to suffer for 2 hour in early morning !

A real better situation ...
Jessica & I, went out .
we went to Bishan J8. although it was only the 2 of us, it's already enough. hehe.
we went around the mall, before we decide to catch a movie ...
17 AGAIN ! at 11.20am show. hehe .

The show is very nice! obviousy, because of Zac Efron lurh sehh ...
After the show, Jess, get herself a dress ... which is really nice .
love the dress, babe !

On our way back to school, i saw my friends ...
Marly and Irrahh with their Bishan ITE classmate ...
So, i introduce them . hehe .
well, ask Irrahh to follow me back to NYP,
to retrieve my Student Admin Card at 2pm.

We(together with felicia n jomaine) went to the Body Watch Gym in NYP(durhh...sch gym)
saw our seniors(SW '08) doing their attachment in the school gym ...
saw Senior,FAEEZ ...

my stupid conversation wif him ...

Faeez: Hey, what you doing here?
Me: Hmmm, want see you mahh ...
Faeez:[BLUSHED!] hmm ... you're like the hundredth person[counting his 10 fingers] that come here to see me !
Me: PERASAN ! haha .

After sometime, Irrahh and I, went out from school .
instead of going home ...
we alight at Khatib station .

went to Lower Seletar Park! just to check out the place .
very nice scenery !
then, walk over to Bottle Tree Park !
also to just check out the place ...

we're so soaked in our perspire ... we decide to go home .
very tired sehh .
been walking all the time .
together with the sunny weather ...
that caused us to be soaked .

i guess, we can go to the parks again ...
but when the weather is not the sunny and we're not carrying any heavy stuff like school bag.
together with a proper attire, not with school uniform(for irrahh)

well, till here people!
i really enjoy myself today,
apart from the morning incident!

thanks for my babes for making my day !
Love ya :JUU

10:14 PM

Tuesday, April 28, 2009

basically, i guess, i want to take back me what i said in my previous post.
after i had some talks with Sarah on our way home, i realise that ...
not only me, who felt the class having cliques. she felt it too.
so i guess, im not just imagining stuff.

well, even though we have cliques. i do have the coolest bunch in my group.
i totally love their company.
they are always cracking jokes.

but then, im kinda sad as ... one of my bestie, Nur Farhanah ...
had to re-shuffle into SW0901 class .
i really hate to be apart from her .
we're getting close ...
haiz, now have to be apart .
im rather half-heart, to be apart .
hmm, she a nice friend.
she's like my listening ear ...
hehe .

okay la, look on the bright side ...
we're still close, i hope .
hope, i can still see her around the school sometime ...

to Farhanah,
hope you will make more friends in SW0901 !
dun forget me ehh !
love ya! catch up with you soon !

well, if im not wrong ...
jess and me, had plan to stay up a while after school .
maybe go J8 or ang mo kio hub .
catch a movie or what ...
not sure yet ...

okie then ... till here !
im tired ...

as poly life is a ride on a mrt train ...
ever rushing ....

Labels: sad

9:57 PM

Monday, April 27, 2009

no offence !
im actually happie with me...in my new school and new class.
im happie that im able to make lot'sa good friends.
but, im beginning to feel the dreadfull-ness of coming to school .

how much i miss having to wake up late, or even to just going to school by foot.
which i totally miss.

now!
i have to like come out from my house an hour before the lessons starts.
just to ensure that im not late for my lessons.
it's very tiring.

early morning, where people are all busy and rushing to go to work or school ...
obviously, you won't be able to grab a seat in the public transport.

it's like so tired !
having to stand for an hour just for the traveling time .
i really find it dreadful.

how i wish my school is very near. haizz...

seriusly speaking, a thought of me to change course did appear in my head.
it's not b'cos im not happy with my classmate or what,
it's just that ...
i just feel that the course doesn't suits me ...
im still trying my ultimate best to adapt .
but, i don't want to lose all the friends i had made in my class .
sob.sob. im confused rite now ...

i really wondered if i can survive for the next 3-years ...
im really scared and confused .

i did told jessica and ei leen, about this ...
they told me to hold on ...

to you babes; im trying ... i will try my very best ...

i'm still in doubts of the choice and the future that awaits me ...

Labels: doubtful

8:44 PM

Tuesday, April 21, 2009

hmm ...

i really misses the familiar faces around me ...

when i got to my new class, i felt like a fish out of water .

everything seems so weird and unfamiliar .

i really misses, the familiar faces .

how i would be coming in the class every morning ...

and, my classmate would say " morning Julaiha ! "

and i will be shouting "MORNING PEOPLE !"

oh gosh ! i really misses that !

how each time, i sat down at my place[in the centre if the class],

then, one by one , people gather at my place ...

cracking morning jokes, laughing oufr ass out !

seeing each of my classmate, walking in through the main or back door.

moving into their own seat.

chatting non-stop ...

within seconds, the class would be like a 'fish market'

in class. i misses...

the familiar faces, that taught me ...

how we would dreadfully stand and say " Good....Morning ....Mr/Ms/Mrs"

how we would make fun him/her ...

cracking all the lame jokes ...

testing their patience ...

when the bells rings ,

everyone would rushes down to the one and only canteen ...

Que-ing up to buy their food, but as usual, we[the seniors], would cut in the Que .

hehe .

buying the same food ...

tasting the nice 'nasi campur' ...

chatting with the auntie for a while .

after the recess, back in the class ...

the jokes came in again !

had some difficulty to settle down after lunch ...

so usually, will have a shorter lesson time ...

during lesson, we will have minor jokes ...

after school,

sometime, had to stay back for mock exams ...

finish homework ...

our classmate, usually leaves the class rather late ...

had to talk for a while more ...

always joking around ...

i really misses that nostalgic feelings ...

how i wish we're not separated !

still as a class , but in the different poly .

won't it be a much better life ?

i misses those, whu had been there for me ...

each times i really needs their helps ...

the most memorable things is that ,

each someone's birthday cames up !

always been up to smething fishy !

i really love my buddies !

no one could replace, you people in my heart !

muachkz !

love you people:JUU

7:16 PM

Sunday, April 19, 2009

hmm.

i know it's been some time since i updated my dearest bloggy .

sorry to my regular reader, whu always reads my bloggy.

i will try my very best to update my bloggy as often as possible...

i've been rather busy for these past few days ...

okay, let me show you my hectic schedule ...

since friday(10.04.09) to wednesday(15.04.09)

i had to work straight from friday to wednesday as it is my last week of work .

then, thrusday(16.04.09) to friday(17.04.09)

i had to attend my poly orientation ...

CHARLES & KEITH

i really feel that, 3 months do passed really fast .

looking back, the 3 months ago, i met and made a lot friends ...

they are;

Janice: ex-shop manager

PohKiew: now being transfered to Novena outlet

Mary: went back to Philippines

SingYee: went back to Malaysia

ShiNan: still at CausewayPoint outlet

Jeremy: now being transfered to CityLink outlet

Mirah: quitted, now pursuing her studies

Roche: attachment student...NYP

Derrick: new shop manager

XiaoMin: transfered from Bugis outlet

XiaoYun: transfered from Novena outlet

YinYin: transffered from ParkwayParade outlet

aww, i really miss them so much . especially, MIRAH !! aww !

i miss the way, Mirah & I, always disturb Derrick(new manger) b'cos of his soft-spoken.

i miss saying " yes ma'am, any size?"

i miss packing the shoe's lorong ... especially lorong 3... my fav.lorong .

i miss coming to work ...

i miss saying " morning/afternoon/evening ! charles & keith causeway point!" each time i answered the phone .

i miss saying " ya! check shoe !"whenever i nid to check shoes at other outlet.

from charles & keith causeway point outlet ...

i learnt a lot of stuff ...

- my patience ...

- customer do remember us, when we gave them gud/bad service ...

- smile! does works !

- customer, loves DISCOUNTS !

- numbers do plays with your eyes

- to climb the store shelving... esp. the side lorong (the hardest lorong)

to sum up everything,

i REALLY MISS MY FRIENDS AT CHARLES & KIETH CAUSEWAY POINT OUTLET !

arghh ! miss you ! miss you !

missing you people:JUU

10:42 AM

Wednesday, April 15, 2009

NOTICE:

in this upcoming post, it will not be any

SUNSHINE & RAINBOW .

in this post, im just letting go my frustration .

it will be full of harsh words .

if you don't like it , that is your problem .

you are WELCOMED to skip this post by clicking [Ctrl + F4] .

thankie :)

few months passed . so shock , of all sudden ... heard news from you .
but then , all you wanted was to say that "i'm sorry"

that you felt rather guilty for the past few months ...

me, myself is currently in the state of confusion .

should i forgive you or not ?

when you ask me to forgive you , i don't know what to say ...
all i say was to just move on ... stop dwelling on past events .

i don't know what sould i reply ...

"you're forgiven"

" NO way !"

i could still remeber my friends said to me ...
"forgive but never forget"

i don't know . a part of me is still aching ...

the aches is not b'cos of the memories

it's b'cos of you ... you contacting me again ....

for goodness sake , i had already forgotten about you ...
yet , the minute i saw your text message ...

all the "beautiful" memories floods in ...

it aches more, when you took such a "short" period of time

to say that 5-letter word ...

i know, what i g'na say next g'na hurts ...

b'cos , i know , you are reading this ...

i hate it . when you took such a "short" time to say that 5-letter word .
you felt guilty? im not sure, if that is what you felt .

i guess, you're lonely now ...it was then, you felt guilt.

[you felt sorry? when was it ? a seconds ago ?]
you used to have someone by your side, (having stand by)

but then, when one by one leaves you ...

it was then , when you start to remeber those that you used to know asking for their company

[i know im being harsh , but that is me ... NOW !]

friends ask me to forgive ... but can i ?
all i know is that , i do not want to live my life ,having a piece of revenge/hatred in me

seriously speaking ...
if you have not contacted me again ...

all these will not happen ...

your memories would have been dead in my mind ...

i would not have hated you so much to this core , now ...

you did sincerely(or not) asking for forgiveness ...

but you made the wrong timing ...
such a "short" period of time , you took there ....

hmm ... what's your reason for taking such a time ?

too busy ?

to gather your bravery /thoughts

you're lonely [& i just happened to come to your mind]

damn it !
somehow , when you said "i'm sorry"

i remember the time we would always fight

you would always be saying you're sorry , but keep repeating the same mistake

that's why, im still in doubt with your "i'm sorry"

the word "sorry" seems to be your "hardest" word

ya allah ...

berikanlah hati ini ketenangan ...

berikanlah kekuatan ...

doubtful:JUU

1:18 AM

Monday, April 13, 2009

3, 2, 1 [couting down,baby!]

finally g'na break free from my suffer-ing ...

g'na be full 3 months ... hehe .

i just can't seem to wait for this 72 hours to pass ...

hehe ...

it felt so slow ... waiting for this pathetic 72 hours to go by ...

how i wish it was NOW !

just now, during work ...

me and mirah , totally does not have the mood to do ...

felt very slack ...

although very slack , im kinda pissed off with my collegue ...

"____" keep ' stealing my customer' , it started from yesterday .

i guess, [he/she] keep doing that , to revenge me , i guess .

b'cos of [him/she] i totally not interested to 'fish' for customer .

so eventually, i did not meet my sales target .

[how to meet, when dat person keep stealing]

the worst thing is that, he scold me for 'stealing' [his/her] customer.

what the *toot* !

it's like, [his/her] customer suddenly approach me, then ask for assistance ...

i just offer - lar . then, [he/she] scold me for taking [his/her] customer .

[totally merepek sia]

he took my customer a lot , i just ignore . petend it did not happen .

but then , when it come to [his/her] ...

fuhh , [he/she] wants to make it into a big issue .

i do not care about [he/she] taking away my customer because ...

i believe that,

if that customer is meant to be yours, then he/she will be yours .

if not then, nevermind ...

i do not wish to compete in meeting the sales target,

if all i do is to just steal my own friend customer .

it's just being unfair .

some more , it's like im g'na be gone . so i do not see the point of competing .

as a part-timer , i do not gain any benefit .

so no need to waste my time and energy ...

okay-la , cut it short !

im sleepy already ...

off to sleep :))

sleepyheaD:JUU

12:31 AM

Sunday, April 12, 2009

hmm...

i know it's been sometime since i had updated

[complaint by SOMEONE]

haha.

well, the reason is dat, i have been busy working lar...

to sum things up, during my off day(wed & thrus)...

went out wif mybeloved cousin,irrah.

we went to EXPO sale. yeah!

we saw Haironie at his stall:NewUrbanMale

it's been some time since i saw him...

terubat rindu...

bought a T-shirt, irrah didn't bought anyting...

then, we went to Lot1...

have our lunch and tonnes of shopping...

went to Cotton On , Billabong, BHG ...

aww, i did lot's of shopping ...

irrah keep saying, "must buy"

instead of helping me to save.... haha...

i guess, she did influence me a LOT ! haha.

well, at least i had gotten myself ready for 1 week of sch ...

ok... enough about my shopping trip ...

on thrusday is my FINAL off day ...

starting from Friday, i g'na chiong working till next wednesday ...

as wednesday is my LAST DAY :))

hehe. can't wait :))

btw it's my old schoolmate b'day...

i had lost contact with him ...

actually, we were not that close really in the first place.

he's a senior of mine in school ...

i really miss seeing him in school ...

he sometime always gets into trouble with his disciplinary, such as; hair,attire and attitude.

a very cheeky and friendly person.

i just wish him all the very best for his future ...

he a glimspe of my text to him...

[i was curious of how to text him actually]

my text:

sorry to disturb.Just testing my hp is spoilt.

happie 19th b'dae

thought i forgot your b'dae? of course NOT! haha

i noe im not the 1st one to wish... but it's ok!

aniwae, hope you succeed in life.

study hard ar... final year rite??

good luck in everything you do...

hope you have a very memorable 19th b'dae...

from you old friend:JuLaiiha

his reply:

haha. thank you thank you. you too my old friend...

aww... haha...[lame sia]

Happie 19th B'dae LOH JUNKAI :))

till here folks,

nid to catch some sleep:JUU

1:15 AM

Tuesday, April 7, 2009

Knowin' you can always count on me, for sure.

That's what friends are for.

For good times and bad times.

I'll be on your side forever more.

That's what friends are for

couting down... it's gonna be 2oth april soon. the day, i gonna step into my new school - where i need to make a new bunch of new friends. hmm ... i was excited but not that thrilling though. the best part is that, im able to meet more people ... the boring part is that, im apart from all my old friends ...

the familiar faces, that brought me tears and laugthers ... sharing all my woes and joys ... going through all the thicks and thins of the days ...

people do says that, friends that you make during your secondary school time ... will last long and the memories will be forever clear in the mind ...

i really hope so. at this point of time, im very sure that i gonna miss my secondary school buddies ... they are always by me side, when i needed them ...

it feels like yesterday, that i entered zhenghua secondary ...

5 years felt like a short time, when it actually NOT ... to be exact [365daysX5]

i really gonna miss their presence by my side. how i wished the people that i met at zhenghua secondary, move on to the exact same poly with me... like 'zhenghua polytechnic', im sure i gonna be a blast!

during my 5 years there, i made a lot of friends...

it's impossible for me to list down all their names ...

i really hope, that once my school start ...

i will not forget all my old buddies ...

i will really misses their presence ...

no ones can replace their presensce in my heart ... aww...

okay folkes, till here ...

missing my friends:JUU

11:26 PM

Sunday, April 5, 2009

*sigh*

tired. really tired.

came back from NUH- visiting my sis.

i was shocked. she had her operation in de middle of the morning.

all i know, is that she will have her Op. soon,

but having on her 1st day admission... was SO early.

she told me, it was about 3am in the morning,

when the nurse woke her up, for her Op.

aww. so poor thing...

but then, it was lucky lar.

minor Op. i guess...

instead of us visiting her...

[me & ai'saa & iQah] went all over the place...

we went to the playground... there's always a kid in me:))

we disturb some patients. making fun of them...

iQah got blushed, when dis mat rep visits his aunty/mother/granny...

which is opposite my sis bed. haha.

iQah keep saying: bleh tahan ehh??

haha. kip it low-profile lar... your attached sehh...

[initially, iQah had a date to WestCoast...but then she cancel it]

being in the hosp. we cracks lot'sa jokes...

this is what always happens when...

sedare jumpe sedare kan... menyakat tak habes2...

okay larh ... my back is aching already ...

guess, might be b'cos of de current cold weather ...

g'na go bed now ...

shit man! tmr, im workin... haizz...

nvm... LESS THAN 2 WEEKS TO GO:))

COUTING DOWN!!!

get well soon,kakak:))

love ya:JUU

11:52 PM

Saturday, April 4, 2009

im back from de Hospital...

yeah. i just visited my elder sis.

she had been admitted there.

innitally, i was very reluctant to go...

it's all b'cos, i was so furious with her, for wrecking my saturday!

but then, when i got there...

seeing her hand, with tubes...injection.

i couldn't help but to just cast aside my anger towards her.

all i felt is just that,

how i wish, it was me...lying there...being poked with tubes and injection...not her.

hmm...

i really wonder the hurt she felt.

seeing her lying on the bed, unable to move much...

it just hurts more than ever.

haizz. i really pity her.

so now, she is there lying on the bed...alone. stuck in NUH.

haizz... i want to accompany her...

but at that point of time, i was still too ego, to accept that - i actually pity her.

we're still unsure of her case.

just now, the doctor:Dr.Charles told us that...

she had some complication in her ovary...

so, yeah... maybe she will undergo some operations...

that Dr.Charles, still have to make some confirmation with other specialist...

hmm, all i hope is that...

everything g'na be fine.

ya allah, kuatkan lah semangat kakak ku...

semoga dia jauh daripada komplikasi yang lain...

semoga segala operasi berjalan dengan lancar...

amin...

praying:JUU

8:44 PM

had a BAD start of de day,

instead of spending my off-day,resting...

i had to send my lil-spoiled-bro,haziQ to his religious class.

it's not dat i dun mind, it's like... i had to send him there by my pathetic-self.

initially, my dad said dat, he g'na catch me up at haziQ place.

it was ok, i thought!

but then, while i was havin my breakfast wif haziQ, my dad called.

saying dat, he CANNOT meet me up! oh great!

[he was at NUH, wif my elder sis & mummy]

i'm totally pissed-off wif them[dad,mummy,sis]

worst! dad even want me to stay till 2pm, to wait for haziQ...

* seriously, at dat point of time, all de BEAUTIFUL VOCAB came out, cursing obviously*

[it's like 4 hours... like waiting for a rain in a drought season]

i'm all alone... what else can i do?

seriously speaking, you can't expect me to stay at Mac'd for 4 hours straight?

guess what i do?? [ain't something great]

i went to the Woodlands Civic Centre's library.

hah. yeah, i spend 3hr plus...

finishin the storybook, dat i was currently reading.

it's a true boredom!

such a boredom... spendin my mornin-cum-afternoon Saturday!

Right now, i really dun haf de mood...

thanks for spoiling my day!

im sure not to pick up their calls after this!

fuming:JUU

3:32 PM

Wednesday, April 1, 2009

although im supposed to be staying home and rest...

just now went out with wani.

she accompany me to zhss, to redeem my cert&testi.

saw my beloved ex-clsmate: swee teck & dominic...

hehe, aww i misses them so much.

after dat, went to bugis juction.

bought her dat pair of shoes dat she have been dreamed about.

haha. suke dier ehh.

well, actually i was supposed to meet up wif my belovedbrother,weekai.

but then, i guess he's still not back yet... so the meet up is cancel.

haizz, it's been some time since i met him.

nevermind, maybe when both of us are very free, then we'll meet up ya?

hehe.

currently, there is a huge chaos in my house.

basically, my lil bro, is vey irritating.

when he doesn't want to do his homework.

just b'coz of him, everyone at home get involed.

just now, get scolding from mummy, b'coz i didn't want to help my lil bro.

[stop pampering him]

arghh, im already so tired...still want me to layan karenah dier o.m.g!

dream on lar ehh.

i guess, till here, folks...

wanna get some sleep, im back to work again tmr:(

sadie me:JUU

10:44 PM