Photographing the past

Wednesday, April 15, 2009

NOTICE:

in this upcoming post, it will not be any

SUNSHINE & RAINBOW .

in this post, im just letting go my frustration .

it will be full of harsh words .

if you don't like it , that is your problem .

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few months passed . so shock , of all sudden ... heard news from you .
but then , all you wanted was to say that "i'm sorry"

that you felt rather guilty for the past few months ...

me, myself is currently in the state of confusion .

should i forgive you or not ?

when you ask me to forgive you , i don't know what to say ...
all i say was to just move on ... stop dwelling on past events .

i don't know what sould i reply ...

"you're forgiven"

" NO way !"

i could still remeber my friends said to me ...
"forgive but never forget"

i don't know . a part of me is still aching ...

the aches is not b'cos of the memories

it's b'cos of you ... you contacting me again ....

for goodness sake , i had already forgotten about you ...
yet , the minute i saw your text message ...

all the "beautiful" memories floods in ...

it aches more, when you took such a "short" period of time

to say that 5-letter word ...

i know, what i g'na say next g'na hurts ...

b'cos , i know , you are reading this ...

i hate it . when you took such a "short" time to say that 5-letter word .
you felt guilty? im not sure, if that is what you felt .

i guess, you're lonely now ...it was then, you felt guilt.

[you felt sorry? when was it ? a seconds ago ?]
you used to have someone by your side, (having stand by)

but then, when one by one leaves you ...

it was then , when you start to remeber those that you used to know asking for their company

[i know im being harsh , but that is me ... NOW !]

friends ask me to forgive ... but can i ?
all i know is that , i do not want to live my life ,having a piece of revenge/hatred in me

seriously speaking ...
if you have not contacted me again ...

all these will not happen ...

your memories would have been dead in my mind ...

i would not have hated you so much to this core , now ...

you did sincerely(or not) asking for forgiveness ...

but you made the wrong timing ...
such a "short" period of time , you took there ....

hmm ... what's your reason for taking such a time ?

too busy ?

to gather your bravery /thoughts

you're lonely [& i just happened to come to your mind]

damn it !
somehow , when you said "i'm sorry"

i remember the time we would always fight

you would always be saying you're sorry , but keep repeating the same mistake

that's why, im still in doubt with your "i'm sorry"

the word "sorry" seems to be your "hardest" word

ya allah ...

berikanlah hati ini ketenangan ...

berikanlah kekuatan ...

doubtful:JUU

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