i was wrong about you. i take back what i said. but, you know ... i dun know!
im officially a one "Little Confused Girl"
i dun even know, what i truly want ? can someone give me some pointers ? it's like; i know i want you ... (singing to "I know you want me") i want nobody nobody but you ... (singing to "nobody")
went out on saturday with my lovely ladies. sadly, last minute Melody could not join us, nvm its okkay. hehe. we bought 4 piece of friendship band; we choose it together haha. love the colour so muchh. haha. anw, i wanna wish that limin gonna haf a safe trip to Thailand. i sure gonna miss her. haha. plus, hope limin and melody did well for their supp. paper. i sure love them. hehe.
extra infomation; i went to BBDC just now. officially, enrolled myself. hehe. in class 3A; auto motocar. haha. its very confusing, you know. azie & i, are like 'sotong' haha. our $100 burnt, during the registration fee and photo. sigh, i was very blur about the booknig of test dates. went online, to check the available date to haf my basic theory test; the earliest is on 19th oct. haha. its like my 1st day of semester 2 in school. haha. kenneth told me to take SOA(statement of absence) on the 1st day. haha. it's like, on your first day of school but you already take so-call-MC. haha. well, daddy gonna transfer me another 100 to pay for my basic theory lesson. haha. my target is to get pass my basic theory lesson by 21st oct. hehe :D wish me luck people, i really need those luck. haha. thanks to daddy, for his encouragement and his money. haha.
if other can do it, julaiha too can do it... hehe.
Kissing you goodbye... Starting my new life... Now i finally know that i'm done and through with you. You are not the one who can give me all. Kissing you goodbye... No more needs to try. Now i know exactly what i wanna do with my life. You will not be there Cause we have nothing more to share... - kissing you goodbye by Jesse McCartney :D
Last time, when i was listening to this song i could not understanf it true meaning of those words. Right now, while typing this note to express my feeling and listening to this song by pure coincidence I finally understand its true meaning if what Jesse McCartney is trying to tell me through this song.
i was looking through your profile & pictures and i found out that you were no longer the guy whom i used to know. that's why right now; i finally decide to let you go freely. i see there is no point thinking about you, when you are not there thinking about me. i guess it is time for me to preach what i always say. i always advise my friends, to move on with their life when thier love life sucks and do not hold on to something when the other party does not bother. therefore, it is time for me to do likewise. right now, i would not want to hope for you anymore. cos, the one that i had been hoping for retun these few years is not you, but is the "old" you.
you had already changed completely and i do not know who you are right now. i guess, the old you are gone at the same time when we ended out story too. i tink its time to really move on and just leave our memories untouched and let it jsut stay as a memories. now, i realised that the person who i had waited, for all these year had already gone and "dead" on 5 years ago :(
i could not see any other reason why would i have to wait for you again. it's like pointless for me to wait, when the old you, whom i loved, are totally gone. i guess, this is the best solution for us. it takes 2 hands to clap. it takes 2 individual to start a realtionship. it toook effort and love to keep things in realtionship going. right now, it was me, who all along been picking up all those broken pieces trying to put them together. even when i was cut by those pieces, you were never there to comfort or to even bother. i't getting tired of trying to put the broken pieces together because im the only one making the effort. which certainly would never get a whole picture and right now. i chose to give it all up.
therefore, i choose to preach what i always say to my friends. to just let you go, if we're meant to be then we would end up together again. i believe in fate and destiny, therefore maybe with god willing; our path would eventually intersect and we may be able to start things from there. Boy, i never regretted loving you and had you once in my life. i hope all the best for you.
I had such a great time at Zai's open house. we were all sharing all the old stuff during those secondary school times. anyway, we plan again to meet up for another hari raya visits next friday, 2 october :D hehe. i can't wait, you know! i just realised that Zai had become taller, like lamp post.hehe. kidding! Azie teased me all day, bcos i was talking about Dydy. so every sentence from her mouth it would end with ... Dydy? haha. its been since, we all sit down and teased each other.
jsut now, plan with Azie to enrol BBDC for my car license. hehe. guess what? daddy approves it ! yeahh. so i will be going to start on my theory this monday 27 september morning. like always, im daddy's girl ... daddy gonna help me enrol and he gonna send Azie & I to BBDC. aww so sweet of him. haha.
okaayy enough of this...
i know i dun haf any feeling for you, but seeing your face it just makes me angry. it make me hate you. it makes me remind of my past, i know it is hard to avoid as we had the same cliqure of friends. sigh! i just hate your presence. i keep asking myself, why at the very first place, it happens between us? feel like knocking my head so hard against the wall, so that i will lose my memory...
say hello to BBDC. say hello to hari raya outing.
i just love my daddy. haha.
9:36 PM
Wednesday, September 23, 2009
my 2009, hari raya pics:D love it so much. its very very blue this year :D my favourite colour, anyway.
freaking RUDE lahh people these days. didn't you people learn what is respect? or you, yourself do not have any self-respect at the very first place? even if, do have some courtesy when you are communicating with others. firstly, i'm sorry if what i gonna blog is kinda sarcastic or what.
yesterday, when i was working at (name) restaurant, a (race) family came in while we are all busy clearing all the empty plates of the previous customer. it's like you just came in, and you demand us to provide you a glass of iced water! like excuse me ? can't you see that we're busy preparing other customer's dishes too ? like you-can-wait-what! then, after you ordered yours, you ask us to prepare yours first. don't you understand by the meaning of "waiting, patiently" when serving your food, not a single "thank you" wad heard from your family! like it is a basic courtesy sia!
so what, you are eating at the restaurant ? we're the service crew there is also human and we deserve the basic courtesy lahh. with your freaking demanding attitude, you are just plain rude lahh !
the freaking i cannot take it, is that the way they call a waitress. they are just plain snapping their fingers. you all think what?, we're animal issit ? hey, basic courtesy lahh. is it so difficult to open your mouth and say " excuse me, miss ?" it is more polite instead of you snapping your fingers right ?
i'm just curious, why are people acting like that ? is it because they are not brought up that positive or they are just plain arrogant ?
yesterday, (13th sept) at (name) restaurant, have a couple of RUDE customers :( im freaking not happy, with their gesture! errrgggghhh!
however, i had a great laught with my co-worker because yestdy is all the "happyhappy people" working:DD love them :DD
well, this week im only working on Thrusday :DD yeahh !
enjoy;Julaiha
12:18 PM
Thursday, September 10, 2009
hello legalisation, Julaiha :DD everyone is looking for this day, when you turned 18th :D right now, i feel kinda old you know. hmm let's look back in time.
6years ago: i was just stepping myself into zhenghua secondary :D 12 years ago: i was just stepping myself into marsiling & west view primary :DD
within these 18th years, i had gone through a lot and i had learn a lot of stuff and made myself more understanding of how cruel/beautiful life actually is.
someone told me that, once we reached 20th the time for us to reach 21/22 etc is indeed freaking fast. so im kinda please right now that im 18th. althought people are still in shock that i turned 18th, well people ! im freaking 18th already! get that in your head people:DD
hmm, every time during birthday there is always birthday wish :DD for my 18th birthday ... here is a list of my 18 wishes :DD
1. To succeed in my poly life and graduate with a dip. in S&W Management :DD 2. For my family, friends and relatives to stay happy and healthy :DD 3. To have my family, friends and relatives close to me :DD 4. To make new and more friends and eliminate any enemies :DD 5. To stay healthy and cheerful as much as possible :DD 6. To travel to Dubai this holiday, anyone wanna sponsor ?? :DD 7. To have a lovely hangout with my loves ones all day long :DD 8. To love and be loved :DD 9. To get a new phone, bcos tis hp start making problem :DD 10. To forget about the past and move on happily in life :DD 11. To have my path intersect with that person :DD 12. To earn more money and help to ease the financial difficulty :DD 13. To be more confident and steady in my decision :DD 14. To relax and enjoy my youthful life to the fullest :DD 15. To know that admiralty"eyecandy":DD 16. To look like 18th ? how does an 18th girl look like anyway :DD 17. To have endless love, care and concern from my loves ones :DD 18. To enjoy this day (11.09.2009, Friday) as most memorable one as possible :DD
went out on saturday with my lovely ladies. sadly, last minute Melody could not join us, nvm its okkay. hehe. we bought 4 piece of friendship band; we choose it together haha. love the colour so muchh. haha. anw, i wanna wish that limin gonna haf a safe trip to Thailand. i sure gonna miss her. haha. plus, hope limin and melody did well for their supp. paper. i sure love them. hehe.
my 2009, hari raya pics:D love it so much. 
*wan act lovely onli*
my lil naughty brother :D
cute rite; its danial (papa's son)
my elder sister :D
like mother, like daughter :D
the only 2 guys in da family :D
hmm, 7 weeks of semester break means
some pics from Teacher's Day :DD