Sunday, November 29, 2009
i do not blame you, i understand you.
Never blame a person, without getting to know the smallest details of the full story first.
that is what i learned yesterday!
Yesterday, in the Singapore Flyer's cabin that 30 minutes ride really made me understand and did clear all my doubts and it answers all the questions i had been haunting me all these few years. It was that moment, that i treasure the most with my mum.
Frankly, i did blame my dad for his recklessness, because if not for his recklessness our family would not be in kind of state. Past few years (when i was 10 years old), dad actually set up his own business, despite against my mum approval. When setting up a business, you have to be prepare for the worst; like a fold up of business. However, setting up a business can also help you to succeed.
Therefore, my dad took up that risk in setting up an Air-con service business. In this business world, everything is like a battlefield. You may not know if there is someone out there is trying to sabotage you. Indeed, dad's company was sabotage by his client. Dad had to fold up his business and the worst was to be declared bankrupt. He had to borrow from bank and to use up mummy's savings to pay up his debts and workers. We even have to sell our house and down grade to a smaller house. Adding to our family stress, was at the same year when mummy was diagnosed with cancer.
Its like adding fuel to the fire. Everything came to us like a bombshell. I could still remember how we used to live in fear, as the loan shark used to keep haunting us - all thanks to dad's friend who made him to become a guarantor. We made through that problem by staying together and with the help from relatives.
Even though, after we made through that problem the anger in me and all the blame i used to put on dad did not ease or fade away. I used to believe that, if not because of dad's recklessness all this would not have happen and our family would be better off living. When i thought, every gonna be all fine and better off this year ... everything start to stir up again ... yes, i did blame dad again initially but ...
After that 30 minute heart-to-heart conversation with mum. I finally understand. That few years back incident when dad were trying to set up his business. He did it, as he thought it would help the family and he had to take a risk.
Just like what people say,
EVERY CHOICES HAS ITS OWN CONSEQUENCES.
EVERY OPTIONS HAS ITS RESULTS.
Most importantly,
YOU PLAN EVERYTHING BUT GOD IS THE ONE THAT SET YOUR FATE.
daddy had 2 results awaits his decision...
1) set up business and maybe it will be a success
2) set up business and maybe it will be a up fold.
Unfortunately, daddy got the 2nd result. That's causes our family to face all the difficulties.
Right now, i calmly saying that i no longer blame dad for the cause of my family difficulties.
i will say, i finally understand your reason for that actions.
PEOPLE MAKE MISTAKES and that apply to my dad too.
NO ONE IS PERFECT IN THIS WORLD
therefore, NO ONE CAN RUN AWAY FROM MAKING MISTAKES.
Public can say that, clearly the fault lies in my dad but i beg to differ. You were not in my dad shoe, you did not experience what dad, mum, 2 sisters, brother and I went through therefore you will never understand the soreness we felt.
You were not there, when all that took place. You were not at 10 years old, when all these took place. You are not us or I, so you will never truly understand.
Even if you were to tell me, you fully understand me but i seriously tell you.
You can understand a person but you can never fully understand and feel the exact thing a person went through.
love, Julaiha
9:34 PM
Saturday, November 28, 2009
Happy 18th Birthday to that dude above in white !
Ahmad Asyraf Bin Ahmad Rosli !yeahh. like finally, you are 18 now.
welcome to the legal 18 club, dude !
anyway...
hope you are doing great in school
&& all the best for the upcoming examinations
&& last long with your relationship.
lastly; see you when i get to see you.
jangan sombong-sombong !
11:23 PM
happy birthday to you;
MUHAMMAD RIZZUAN !
my new classmate in SW0902.
like obviously its a shout out to that guy in the pic above, not the girl.
that's not his gf anyway.
its my another classmate, Tracy Wong !
To Rizz:
welcome to the legal 18 club &&
hope that you will register for your bike license soon,
mentang- mentang dahh 18 :DD
enjoy your wonderful b'day !
see ya around in school, yaw
&& good luck for the upcoming examinations all.
11:12 PM
Thursday, November 26, 2009
home, its a place where comfortness
a place where you feel the sense of belonging ...
just like when people says;
yeahh !
home sweet home ...
it's been about 10 years that i have been living in this bukit panjang area.
eversince i was in primary 1.
i feel the sense of belonging here.
i feel so assured in bukit panjang and
im very sure that i will not get lost.
its like; the map of bukit panjang had already been locked at the back of my head.
then suddenly; this news that came by chance really hurts me literally.
"adik; we may be moving house"
im very sad and excited at the same time.
moving house its like;
i have to leave behind all my friends
my memories in bukit panjang.
although we're not sure yet where we are moving to .
but i seriously hope that
even if we were to move house;
can it be
in bukit panjang itself ??
well; friends asking me not to move house.
i know, i sure gonna miss you all .
but then, let just fate decide.
in my current house; it hold memories that
my heart is eagerly trying to forget.
to make it disappear totally.
as long as i still stays in this house; the memories will keep haunting me.
so from my point of view;
i dun mind to move house ...
if that will help me forget every memories in the house.
but for sure; i will miss all my friends seriously.
i really hope that; even if we do move house...
it will be around bukit panjang so that; i can still be near to all my friends ...
saying my goodbye ...
to my friends; not to worry
when this moving house issue do come true
i will update you guys personally to break the news ...
for the time being;
just stay happy && Juu love you people.
1:43 PM
it's been a while since i blog my stuff here.
aww, i really miss my blog. heheh.
oh man, im down with a fever.
can someone actually help me recover ?
superb tired lah.
i had 3 days of straight work from tues-thurs
then; next 2 days of saturday & sunday to work :(
friends telling me to stop working as it is affecting my health
but i need to; its because im celebrating mummy's birthday this coming wednesday
&& im thinking of buying something special for her.
therefore; i dun mind getting my health weak and all
so that i could have that money to buy her present.
i thought of buying her a necklace;
but not that kinda necklace from Aries shop
but a shop like Taka Jewelry.
sigh...
im feeling damn tired right now. && all i could think of at this exact moment
is the Friday's public holiday && my health.
oh mann...
can i stay strong till next wednesday ???
anyway; to my morning call(er);
its been a while since we talked.
guess you are busy with work and stuff,
nevermind its okay then.
we will just talk again,
after im done with this exhausting week.
take care, morning call(er)
feeling all sick and drained out. all i want is a nice rest at home...
1:43 PM
happy birthday dearest Dude; Haironie Jasni!
hehehe. cehhh dahh abang abang sehh. dah legally 18 sehh.
hahaha.
dude; stay strong with your babe; Darina yaw. heheh.
hope to see you soon, dude !
must treat me to N.U.M stuff ehh, dude.
11:59 AM
happy birthday to my one and only daddy, yaw ! hahaha.i know its kinda too late to post this, but its the thoughts that counts!seriously, idk wat to say here. heheeh.its kinda weird. haha.just a happy birthday to my lovely daddy. herelove ya from the bottom of my heart yaw. proud to be thesiti julaiha binte ROSLI !
11:59 AM
Friday, November 20, 2009
happy birthday to you
happy birthday to you
happy birthday to Nurizam
happy birthday to you ...
*pointing up*
yeahh!
it's my sweetheart 19th birthday.
heheh.
i just wanna say,
happy 19th birthday to you &&
hope you get things better
in the ahead future.
all the very best of luck from
the bottom of my heart specially for you.
anyway, miss you so much .
hope to see you around,
although i know you are very busy with
your work and stuff so i just hope
we could meet up anytime sooner.
miss ya many many !
p.s: sweetheart, you still owe me my present &&
your 2 Swensen treat ! hehehe.
your my prince charming in dashing blue police uniform.
love. love. love.
i love you to the maximum !
love ya many many, my dearest cousin :DD
muachkz muachkz !
8:06 PM
Thursday, November 19, 2009
warning: this post gonna be full of negative stuff. sorry if i do hurt any party.
how could you be so hypocrite ? please see yourself in the mirror and reflect back if you were good enough. don't think that you are much elderly in the family, you can say any how you like.
if you were to know; its mainly because of you that my family is always at fighting ends. you may think that everyone love you, but to be truth, we only detest you even more.
you go around telling people about our family, at our relatives but at that same point of time;
you tell us the bad things about my relatives family to our family.
oh please do make up your mind. think i really like this ?
ehh, Fcuking hell lurhh sehh. my patience level also have its limit.
in front of me, you pretend to so nice like ;
"wow, Ju you are such a nice girl"
but then when you go visit my other relatives place you say;
" omg lahh, Ju is so lazy! "
wth ! make up your mind, if you detest me so much say that in front of my face can?
dun have to put up a fake smile && fake love if i dun really have a place in your heart.
dun be such a hypocrite can ? fcuk that attitude lurhh sehh !
think i like it mehh, fcuk lurhh sehh !
growing up, i find that you are becoming more & more irritating and always gets on my nerve but i dun want to blast off my anger at you because i have to respect you as an elderly.
FYI; my family is having a strain relationship with each other than
ks to your lovely mouth of yours. we are always fighting because of you. its like thanks arrhh ! fcuk seriously that attitude of yours; hypocrite bitch!
i know, im being an ungrateful girl but you seriously
have to get that fcuking attitude of yours away lahh. i dun like that hypocrite side of you !
if you think that my family is not good enough to accommodate your style
why not go and stay with your other family ?
i bet the will be sooo glad to receive you at their house.
i bet they have been waiting to live with you, right.
since you keep comparing that my family is not good for you and your other families is better than mine, why not pack your stuff and go with them. i would also be glad that way,
you know. i will even throw a huge party for your farewell, you know!
my relatives may thinks that im being ungrateful to you and your kindness for taking care of me, sincce i was young. but let me assure them, why not have that person at your
house for more than a year or even a decade and lets see if you do not have any problem
created in your house. dun judge my family anyhow; get your facts right and why not have that person in your life then you will know why am i so angry right now. t
hat person can be saying all the nicest words you can ever receive, but behind your back,
you know what ??? that person actually says the total 360 degree opposite of what she said to other relatives of yours. thinks that fair or what am i supposed to be happy right now.
think twice lurhh sehh? i totally detest you, lurh sehh.
seriously, i dun hate you because you are also my flesh and blood
but i just detest that character of yours. you can win the award of
WORLD MOST HYPOCRITE PERSON LIVING ON EARTH !
fcuk that attitude away before everyone in your life actually tell you
in person that they detest you !
10:07 PM
Wednesday, November 18, 2009
your call ease all my negative thoughts ...
funny or what !
my elder sister was like
" adik, you got 5 missed call from *ehem*"
them im like " oh shit! "
quickly, i msg to inform you to call me ...
indeed you were jokingly - angry b'cos i did not picked up your call .
im very very sorry, its b'cos my hp was under the pillow that's why i did not hear .
i was upset that you did not call for the past fews days .
but after i hear your reason, i was touched instantly !
" i wanted to call you this morning,
but i have to save up on my prepaid to give you
that morning call on Thursday && Friday "
awww ... *melts melts*
sweet or what !!!
im very very touched lurhh sehh !
blindly , i thought you were angry with me for not talking on saturday night .
but then, it was the otherwise .
happily im so touched with what you said .
it may be not the mushy-iest words
or even the words i wanted to hear
however those words were sincere
and your sincerity touched and moved me ...
melts away , Julaiha :DD
2:03 AM
Sunday, November 15, 2009
Go for the person that makes you smile with all your heart and soul.
The person whom you cannot wait to see or to talk to.
This is the person whom you are meant to be with; maybe not be forever
but for now; they are the right one for you.
I was looking into all my old documents in the computer;
then i came across the above quote.
It really captures my attention.
I totally agree with it sayings;
" This is the person whom you are meant to be with; maybe not be forever
but for now; they are the right one for you"
Why am i holding back this feelings?
my dudettes; Wani & Zara also ask me to give it a try ...
im still young && why not give it a try before he actually slips away ...
hmm ... idk! i would love to; but im not sure.
it's a Long-Distance relationship .
is it possible ?
there is so much factors to consider;
- communication
- trust
- faithfulness
- distance
- etc.
okkay, why not i will just go with the flow
&& see where are we heading to ...
maybe we would move on to the next level
or just leave it hanging without any string attached.
all the best to us; morning call(er)
hoping; Julaiha Rosli
11:35 PM
Thursday, November 12, 2009
Good Morning !
what could be more good about the morning
than having someone to wake you up unexpectedly.
morning call(er) spice up my life.
although i was late for school;
but it's the sincerity that counts.
thanks you so muchiie
for that effort :DDD
so touched by the effort and was moved totally.
it was a good effort;
when that person was very tired and had a late night
but still give you a morning call
to ensure that you are not late for school ...
awww; sweet or what ?
morning call(er); you spice up my life...
2:29 PM
Monday, November 9, 2009
sometimes; memories is killing us inside
no matter what,
life still have to move on
even when you know that it is hard.
which is the hardest thing to do ?
to move on from something that is already in the past ?
or
to hold on to something in the past with the impossible hope that it
will come true one day ?
in life; there is something that you can achieved and
something that you have to sacrifice
5:52 PM
Friday, November 6, 2009
*look below*
yeap!
tat is the certified verication slip when you are taking the Basic Theory Test :DD
yess people ! i
just took my BTT on 5th November.
it certainly make my day;
bcos i was allocated at Station 15; which is certainly my favourite no.
hehe! therefore; i love it so muchh. haha.
i PASSED! hehe :DDD love love !
below is the Provisional Driving License (PDL)
im able to drive but MUST have instructor in the car.
hehe.
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hehe. so peeps;
with god willing (insya allah) i can get my REAL license.
wish me luck people.
love ya :DDD
im proud of myself; okkay.
love julaiha to the max :D
6:45 PM
Monday, November 2, 2009
im so in love ...in love ...deeply in love ...with my lovelywith my dearestHAIR !hahah.-001.jpg)
thanks to my babe; Hazwani Mois .
she french braided my very flat hair
right now; i love my hair to the maximum !
ultimately in love my hair :DD
1:25 PM
happy birthday dearest Dude; Haironie Jasni!
happy birthday to my one and only daddy, yaw ! hahaha.
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