Monday, April 26, 2010
the hardest thing to do is to bid goodbye on stuff that holds a significant value to us. the stuff that really holds a significant value in my heart is saying my goodbye to my dearest home at jelapang. although i stayed there for only 6 years, but it still holds a great significant value in me. my dearest home, watches me grow, watching me having my ups & downs in life. watching me struggling with different problems like friendship, family and school. my dearest home, saw my tears and laughter. i sure gonna miss my home very much. a place where witness the fights and reconcile after a misunderstanding. my dearest home, watched how much i grown; from being a timid lil girl to someone that is more open minded and outspoken. my dearest home, contain much memories that some i wished i could just stay at that moment and some just want to erase. however, overall i really love my dearest home. no matter what, life just have to go on ... right now, im living at my aunt's place. it's kinda cramp with a total of 14 people in a house but with that huge number of us, it's like an ever lasting laughter and jokes. i guess it's a rainbow after a huge thunderstorm. i gonna love my new house now. i joked with everyone " today feel like the night of Hari raya, where everyone are so excited and are not asleep ! " - it's already 12.30pm but the kids are not asleep and they are having morning school. hehhe. soon, i will upload the pics when i took while moving the stuff over to my aunt's place. right now, my dearest lappy had just went for "operation" and still being hospitalised. i need to save up $400 before i can have him discharged :))xoxo, julaiha
11:33 AM
Wednesday, April 21, 2010
19th april; the start of my T.E.P; the stopover is event planning management.
things right now, personally i find it a up and down stuff &
i guess i'm struggling here to hold on.
all i wish is that, i have the encouragement to pull things through :(
school sucks for me :(
& i really want this semester to be over very fast.
3:57 PM
Thursday, April 8, 2010
hmpk. i know my lil cousin is trying to be that lil-clever-matchmaker for me, but things aren't just doing great for me.
i received a text from her saying that she just passed my number to this friend.
i could not say anything because, she had already passed it, not like she is asking my permission before passing it on.
she was just informing me that she had already passED my number.
yeah, so we did texted a lil yesterday. everything was pretty alright until thing got worse when i did not reply his text
and he gave me like another 3 textes before giving me a call.
like durh - i did not pick up his call & what irks me the most is like,
he is acting like someone so important to me, that i have to report to him every single thing i'm doing.
hello boy, you're not even my boyfriend. why would in the world, do i have to report to you everything.
& you don't need to call up on me to check.
i freaking hate it when he sent me this text
"did you receive my text?"
" nevermind. so, you didn't even realise that i call you just now? "
- excuse me, technically i saw you were calling but i just did not wanna answer it.
i just find it pretty much irritating cos you are acting as if you own me ( which you NOT)
i do not mind, if you wanna be friends with me, but not to the extent that i have to report stuff to you.
hey we're not even together and there is no string attached.
seriously speaking, you're starting to freak me out and i'm really ain't interested.
right now, i hate the fact that my lil cousin are doing this to me.
yeah, im jolly well know that you're freaking attached with your dearest boyfie
but that doesn't mean that i'm not being jolly well happy staying single.
who say you need a boyfie to be jolly well happy with your life?
i know you're trying to help here.
but i'm doing great by myself
and i just want things to happen naturally.
i know that my mr. is somewhere out there, it's just that our path has yet to intersect.
i'm not in the mood and i'm not seeking for a boyfie right now.
i just want things to get better for myself and family right now.
other stuff can wait and their time will come eventually.
all i want right now is for my dearest to know that,
i'm happy with my single life eventhough i do get jealous seeing lovebirds.
but i will just cast that aside because there are other things in life
that needs my attention.
if that mr. do come by, i won't give it a pass.
not to worry, i will inform everyone if that happens.
Greatest love is not a love by someone
Greatest love is not when you love someone
Greatest love is when you love yourself :)
1:28 AM
Monday, April 5, 2010
let me bring you people back to my old days :)
when i was kinda naive in my life and i get head over heels over artiste. hehe.
everyone would have gone through that epic moment, right :))
here is my #1 addiction :))
my ultimate all-time favorite football player, Francesc Fabregas Soler (Arsenal)
he was my love at the first sight (one-sided, like duh) haha.
i was secondary 1 at that time, when he first started playing for the Arsenal club.
From then on, he is my favorite boy. hehe.
let's calculate, it's been like 6 years :) (wah, if only I can be that faithful in reality)
Naively, i even dream of getting married to him :)) - that is what every girl dream to marry their favorite idol.
i will jokingly say, we will get married at the Emirates Stadium :)) hehe.
my friends would also join in the fun, by saying about their favorite idol too.
* don't tell me, you never had that kinda illusion *
When i was in secondary 3, i told my friend that.
When i'm 20 years old, i would take a holiday trip to London - just to meet him personally :)
* but when i'm 20 years old, i would have just graduated from NYP * hehe
Let me tell you a piece of so-called-secret.
Before i choose my NYP, Sports&Wellness Management course ...
i was making a joke about - how i can be a certified personal sports psychologist to Fabregas :)
* i know, dream on *
alright enough, i just cannot get over the fact that he's so cute :)
i've been supporting him ever since;
- he is 16 years old until now, 23 years old ( this year,2010)
- he did not know how to speak english, until he speak fluent english
- he as a ordinary mid-fielder until he became the Captain for Arsenal
okay, now im being superb freaky. hehe.
adding to my ultimate idolise of him,
i love the fact that he is very faithful to his girlfriend.
he had been together with her even before he played for Arsenal.
it's such a long-time relationship.
i love it!
*unlike other famous international footballer,
that just go around changing partners
as if they are doing their regular soccer practice :)*
ilovefabregas :)
12:04 AM
Saturday, April 3, 2010
sometimes, how i wished i was ego, hard-headed, irresponsible, disrespectful, carefree,ignorant just like my elder sister.for myself, i'm so sick of being the nice girl, understanding, always following rules, soft-hearted person in the household. being too nice, people are just taking the advantage of myself. i'm just being people's doormat and it really hurts me deep inside. even when being too nice, i was scolded for other's fault - which is totally unfair for myself. while i'm being blamed, others just freely walk away.the only reason i got for that was that " it's hard to talk sense you your elder sister"
ohgosh! like excuse me! she's is still your daughter and you ought to make her at least have the basic courtesy and respect when at home. ohgosh!
the most thing i freaking hate my elder sister to the very core is just that - she can just freaking pretend like nothing is her fault and she is the angel one at home. just like she is not even responsible for doing any house chores.
her only reason to back her up - from doing house chores is that she is working.
timeout! foryourfreakingbrainlessinformation; me, myself is also working. which makes us equal.
you, working extra hour? hell ya right, get this in your head. when you're having your off-day, you went out from morning till the next morning causing you to have less/no rest for work. Hey! it's like spitting in the air - which makes you to be more dirtier. useyourfreakingbrain. having off-day, you can just rest at home to rejuvenate yourself, yes you can go out but there is no need for you to like go out like the whole 24hours right in a day.
i'm not trying to be disrespectful here but i'm just losing my patience and my losing my cool. i'm tired of taking the blame of what i did not do. i'm tired of being the nice and understanding girl. i'm tired of being used and taken advantage of. you want me to respect you, hey! try by respecting others first. show some basic courtesy and respect at home first.
there is just one thing i wanna say to you;
Girl, seriously speaking you had lost your respected position since that day and i'm not sure if you can be respected again or not.
sometimes i wonder, why i have such sister at the very place. but fact cannot be changed, you're my biological elder sister :(
1:47 AM
my ultimate all-time favorite football player, Francesc Fabregas Soler (Arsenal)
i've been supporting him ever since;