Monday, July 19, 2010
that babe next to me is no other than my great bestfriend - girlfriend. officially on 19th July, she is leaving Singapore to study abroad for the next 3 years. yes, i gonna miss her like super crazy. she's been there through my ups & downs. she is the first person that i would run to, when i have a problem.
she is my shoulder to cry on.
she is my pillar of support when i gave up.
practically, we grew up together and getting to know each other true colours.
we managed to know each other hidden words.
we know each other tears behind those fake smiles.
we do not even have to say out everything because we clearly understand each other.
as her bestfriend, im trying my very best not to shed tears in front of her.
pretending that im alright yet, im not.
i'm so gonna miss her.
babe, if you wanna know...
i kept quiet when you told me that your leaving on 19th because for me it was too early and i felt that i have not spend a lot of my time with you.
the day that i slept at 7.30am is when i was rushing to do your video that i gave it to you.
the reason that i keep myself busy with work, is because i'm trying to run away form the reality that
you are going away on the 19th July.
i know no matter how much i run away from facing the truth, the day would still come for you to leave.
however, i'd rather spend my mind off thinking your leaving so that i would not be hurt that much.
this passed few days, i've been thinking on how would my life be without you.
who do i run to, for that listening ear?
for that shoulder to cry on ?
for that hanging out ?
i know i can't be selfish. i gotta let you go peacefully and with the smile on my face.
i'm happy for you, that your pursuing your future.
but i gonna miss the hell out of you.
i could not get myself to say goodbye directly. therefore here is my last farewell.
babe, azdiyatul akmah.
take care of yourself and study hard. i know your character, you do not want to make others worry about you but if you really have problem that you cannot handle yourself. please, call me and we will talk about it okay. i know your a very independent girl and i know you would be very well taken care by your family and friends there. i really hope you would not forget me :) yes, i may not be there to face any problem with you but i promise you that what ever problem you have, you are not facing it alone. you got me to rely on.
i wanna thank you for being there always for me. listen to my whining and always pampering me :)
we're like a twin, so your problem are my problems too :))
anyway, my dad says; once your back from KL he will treat again to dinner at Holiday Inn Park View Hotel.
will be looking forward to see you. i'm looking forward for my birthday, because i know you would be there to celebrate with me.
girlfriend, love you sangat sangat ! take care okay. keep in touch okay. gonna miss you very muchiee.
love, julaiha
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