Wednesday, December 22, 2010
Why am i always supposed to be the only one most responsible child at home? At the age of 19, i ought to be out there having fun with my friends. Not being stuck with work and worried about family and financial. Why does the burden is all being carried by me alone, it's not that i do not have a elder sibling. I have, but how can she just simply ignore all those responsible and be out there having fun and not even think about the family. I'm sick of this thing, to be responsible and matured when i can be childish and irresponsible. I envy you, for being so irresponsible and so thick skin for not even have the shame for letting me carrying all the burden when you can just have fun all day.
i really hurts being the second child in this family, seriously. i feel like i'm living for the family sake. i gotta stay strong for the family and my younger siblings.
elder sis, i know you won't be reading this. So i'm just saying this ...
I really hope you would change for the better. Somewhat i wish God would wake you up and let you see that there so much you gotta do in this family. As family, we ought to stick together through the thick and thin. We cannot do anything, if you choose to shut yourself from us.
I'm tired carrying my responsibility as a second child plus having to carry your responsibility as the elder child.
All i want for Xmas is for you to change and be a better person with responsibility.
11:33 AM
