Tuesday, January 4, 2011
People can say that you're a weakling and a crybaby, but no ones knows how strong you really are except for yourself. Only you, yourself that knows your strength limitation.
Daddy always disturb me, on how i used to be a crybaby when i was a kid.
My instant reaction would be crying out loud, even just by a slight raise of voice.
I admit, i used to be a crybaby.
Everyone has their own soft spot.
Recently, i do not know what's came up in my mind until i got myself this thoughts.
I composed myself, stronger.
I told daddy that, never judge me as a weakling and a crybaby just because i used to be one.
Yes, i may have my soft spot but only myself knows how strong i am.
If i'm not strong at will,
i would not even been here writing this post and living for the past 19 years.
This is related to the facts, that my parents made a decision back 19 years ago not to bring me into this world - an unplanned pregnancy, abortion.
Simply it's because, they had just had my elder sister therefore to have me,
it would be too early since my elder sis have not even a year old.
I cried, when mummy told me that she ate all the different type of herbal things
just to clear me away. She had to ate pineapples all,
but still she could not get rid of me.
It was then, they decided to keep me.
From there, i know that i'm a strong girl at will because i could withstand the pressure that my parents wanted to get rid of me.
I still hold on.
People may say, it God and it's simply not about me.
But i will put it this way, I was strong at will to be born in this family and God gave me the strength to hold on and God and I shared a reason on why am i born in this family.
I'm proud to be the daughter to my parents and
i thank God for giving me this chance to live in his beautiful world.
There were times, when i wanted to give up
but each time i want to give up i would think on how much pressure and struggle
i pulled through to be able to live.
Lastly, i want to know what is my reason for living in this world
and to be a part of this family.
Sayang Allah, Mama, Abah <3>
1:14 AM
