I'm really tired pretending that everything is alright. Being the sunshine, when all I want to do is to break down and cry. I want to tug myself under my blanket, cover with pillow and burst into tears and scream like nobody business. Just because there is always a smile on my face, it does not always means that I'm alright. I pretended so much of being alright until people could not even differentiate if I'm still pretending or am I really happy. It sucks, big time. Sometimes, it's hard to preach your own advice. I've always believe in "everything will be alright, when you believe it will" and " keep on smiling even though things were to fall apart" I do still believe in these, that what keep me going through my life. However, there is a limit and I hope i can withstand this, seriously. I know, I'm strong. Julaiha, you gotta hold on and keep going.
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