Saturday, June 11, 2011
you're not in my shoe, so you don't know what i've been through. Since you don't know anything about my life, don't come up to me and give me all this shit that you thought, it will do me.
I have my own reasons for my actions.
This is the reason why i dread meeting up with my guys ex-schmates because they will end up asking about her. i'm not jealous or what, it's just that what made you guys think that i know about her whereabouts. Her life does not revolves around mine, so why are you guys keep bugging me with questions.
I do not give a fucking damn about what she's doing right now, who she's dating now all that. If you really want to know, why not just ring her up and shoot her with questions.
Just because we're related by blood, that does not means that i know everything that happened in her life. Frankly, it's been years since we last talked and it was her who initaited the silence treatment so why must it be me that break the ice? Will it be fair for me? Getting all the blame just because of her actions?
Stop comparing me with her, we're completely two different people.
It really hurts to see that people, whom i thought to be my friends are jugding me directly without knowing the whole story of my life.
It's like i'm fighting a losing battle, even before i could stand up for my right, i've already been judged. She's the apple of your eyes, that's why whatever I say and do would be seen as bad, negative and wrong to you. She's the angelic one and i'm the fucking bitch to you.
Thanks for leting me realize that yesterday. Right now, i realize that just by having looks,body and slutty manners you can win over a guy completely until he loses his right state of mind. It been years since i've tolerated being compared, judged, mock by you guys. Right now, i know where i stand thanks for making me see that clearly yesterday.I have my breaking point too.
I know, this thing will still continue and there is a limit to my patience. Breaking a friendship would be the last resort to this.
5:12 PM
