Thursday, September 29, 2011
What if, the one that you have always wanted is the not the one you actually need?
Wait, how long does waiting for someone would then be waited, like waited too long?
Would my life be better, if i had not know you? Would my life be better, if our path does not crossed?
Do you know what sucks? It is knowing the need to let go, but I choose to hold on. That sucks big time, and that is what you would never understand.
This post would specially dedicate to my #highschoolcrush.
Firstly, i would like to thank you for the beatiful memories since high school.
You made my high school life amazing. You're my motivation to get up every morning to attend school.
You're also my inspiration to fight on my 2 major exmaination to fight for a place in Poly.
Thank you for all that, eventhough you do not realize that.
However, for now ... I realize that i have just waited too long and it will just be another wasteful wait for you.
I have always reserved this heart of mine for the boy, whom heart is away with someone else.
Therefore, I got to be brave and cold, to walk away rather than to stay around this infatuation.
I got to put a stop to this infatuation as it would never be up to the next level.
Therefore, I'm done waiting and i'm walking away from all these.
Dear #highschoolcrush, you would still be that special someone whom holds a special place in my heart.
The next time the thoughts of you appear in my mind, i would remember you just as a casual friend.
I hope my close friends would understand this and stand by me.
I'm letting go of you, #highschoolcrush, you're my #hardest goodbye but since it is for the better.
4:55 PM
Sunday, September 11, 2011
It's sept 11 already? Oh great; for the first time in my life I totally forgot about my birthday. (I hope it won't happen again)
Simply because I'm rather caught up with the Phuket trip on sept 12. Busy with the packing up plus school holiday totally make me lose my track of calendar.
Okay, with a year older means a lot wiser (I hope so) I'm grateful that God have given me this opportunity to witness my 20th birthday here on earth. I'm glad of the family and friends that I have met along my 20th here on earth. Everyone plays a key role in my character development for the past 20years.
I'm thankful of the love and cares showered to me by all the awesome people in my life. Each and everyone of you, are the collies of my life. Without you people, my life would be black and white;dull.
Honestly, each year I wish I could celebrate with someone special but then I wonder... Why spend it with someone when you can celebrate with everyone!
Yes, another year celebrating without someone special but I know my Mr. is out there somewhere. There no need to rush things; let it come naturally. Until my Mr. arrive in my life, this heart of mine would still be with that boy whom heart is away with someone else. #highschoolcrush
My wish? For people around me to be filled with happiness and love. That includes you #highschoolcrush
Happy birthday to me, happy birthday to me.
Happy birthday to Siti Julaiha Binte Rosli
Happy birthday to me :)
2:47 AM
Thursday, September 8, 2011
Well maybe, just maybe some people are meant to be all alone in their life. And maybe that some people is me.
Only God knows these thoughts and feelings.
1:38 AM
Wednesday, September 7, 2011
Whatever that lies for me in future, scares me alot. I'm afraid of the pressure and the expectations. All I know for now is that; God would never give me something that I cannot handle.
6:34 PM
Thursday, September 1, 2011
God gave us a pair of ears with a mind in te center, not because it look nicer that way. Simply because HE encourages us to use our pair of ears to listen to both parties and use our right state of mind to make our conclusion. Possibly without being bias of any party.
7:53 PM
