When you're at your lowest moment, you will realize who you're true friends are. With many things happening in my life, at the same time, yesterday was really my lowest moment. I was badly affected by a news, it was a reality check. I was so affected yet I could not show it as I do not want my parents to know about this.
Yesterday, I was glad Wani was there to listen and provides me with suggestions, through whatsapp. It was the first time that I cried, while trying to explain my situation. It was really a cry my heart out.
Yesterday, I cried myself to sleep and woke up to a terrible headache.
Then, I had to follow mum out. In the bus, long ride with heavy heart and a lot of things in mind. I recall my conversation with Wani, I realize that I would never be that kind of girl that #highschoolcrush want. I cannot be that girl and I do not want to be that kind of girl. I had done enough from my part, that's why it should really stop.
I got to move on, as it is for the better.
Also, after sharing this issue with kak shikin I felt better when she told me "it's okay to cry your heart out, rather than to bottle it all up"

To my close friends; wani, bahirah, zahirah and not forgetting azie thank you for always being there to be my listening ears. I would really try my best to move on, trust me. I really do need your understanding in this.

Ya Allah, kalau ini ujian yang kau berikan insyaallah akan aku mengatasinya .

Heavyheart, please go away.
I'm emotionally tired and psychologically affected but I know I gonna pull it through.
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